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lenten journal: by heart

I came home from working in my window seat at the Marketplace and found a post from a friend who talked about being “smacked in the face again by some serious meanness.” As I was digging through some old notes tonight, I found a short story I wrote a long time ago. I don’t write them often. Somehow, it feels like a good word for tonight.

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By Heart

Cal realized he had forgotten his reading glasses when he sat down in his second row pew and opened his worship guide. He could read the bold print, but he couldn’t decipher some of the smaller instructions. He wasn’t worried though. He had been in church all of his life and things weren’t that different from week to week. The best news for him was he didn’t have to worry about the hymns because he knew his favorites by heart. When he came to words he didn’t know, he just sang the word “watermelon” over and over so it looked like he knew what he was singing.

When the accompanist began to play the introduction to “It Is Well With My Soul,” Cal was transported; it was one of his favorites. Since the song was reflective, the instructions in the worship guide were for the congregation to remain seated. When the introduction finished, he began to sing,

When peace like a river attendeth my way
When sorrows like sea billows roll
Whatever my lot thou has taught me to say
It is well, it is well with my soul

He lost himself in the song and was only slightly aware of how quiet the people were in the pews around him. He could hear one, maybe two, voices from the choir loft. When the chorus came, everyone joined in.

It is well (it is well)
With my soul (with my soul)
It is well, it is well
With my soul.

When the hymn was over, Dave leaned up from the pew behind Cal and said, “Nice job, buddy. That first verse was supposed to be a solo from the choir.”

Cal tried to laugh it off—and did as far as Dave knew, but he felt like an idiot. When the service was over, he slipped out the side door before the choir came back to hang up their robes. Maybe folks would forget by next week.

Brenda took her solos seriously. She didn’t feel like she did a lot of things well, but she knew she could sing. And she loved to sing. When Roscoe, the choir director, asked her to sing the first verse of “It is Well With My Soul” as a solo to lead the congregation into prayer time, she jumped at the chance. She loved the hymn and even knew the story behind it, which she promptly told to the rest of the choir as they rehearsed before worship,

“Horatio Spafford lost all of his possessions in the Chicago Fire and then lost all four of his daughters when their ship crashed into another as it crossed the Atlantic. Only his wife survived. A few weeks later, while he was on a ship going to meet her, he said he passed near the place where his daughters died and the Holy Spirit gave the words to him. “

For full effect, Roscoe chose to play the hymn on the piano. Brenda quietly cleared her throat and then began to sing precisely on cue. But she was not singing a solo. There was another voice—another voice not in the choir loft. The voice was singing well, but the problem was that they were singing at all. She looked around until she spotted a man in the second row, singing with his eyes closed. Since the choir sat in the back of the small sanctuary, she couldn’t get his attention to wave him off. She also couldn’t set the mood she wanted for worship because he hadn’t paid attention to the instructions in the bulletin. Despite all of her hard work, what people would remember was the guy in the front singing when he wasn’t supposed to. Her attempt to make worship more meaningful with her voice was shattered by the phantom singer. The song was ruined, she thought as she sat down at the end of the hymn. She felt a hurt, slighted, and disregarded, but mostly she felt like a failure. She had one gift to bring to worship and someone sat on it. What good was a broken gift?

Charley always got to church on time and he always sat in the balcony, which, in his little church, was a single row of chairs. He mostly came to church because he had nowhere else to go and the folks here didn’t seem to mind him being around. In fact, they were pretty good at including him in things, even though faith was new to him. He had only been coming for six or eight months. He liked to come early to hear the choir practice. Soon after he sat down, he heard someone telling a story about one of the songs and how it had been written because a man lost all his children.

Charley knew that feeling, too. Since his ex-wife had moved, he didn’t even know where his children were. She made it clear he did not deserve to see them because of all he had done. He didn’t know what else to do but agree with her.

When it came time for the song, the lady who had told the story stood up to sing. Charley had heard her before. She had a beautiful voice that was strong and soft at the same time. But when she started singing, it wasn’t just her. There was a male voice coming from the front of the church. Even though he never turned around, the two singers were right together and sounded beautiful. Charley was sure they had practiced a lot to be able to sing so well without being able to see what each other was doing. He read the words as they sang and tried to join in with the rest of the congregation, but never mastered more than the chorus: it is well, it is well with my soul.

He wondered if the writer really felt well in his soul as he stared into the sea that had swallowed up his daughters, or if he was trying to convince himself he could feel that way. All Charley knew was the words felt true when he heard them and he needed something to feel true, even if only for a moment.

Charley was coming down from the balcony just as Brenda was moving to hang up her choir robe in the closet next to the stairs.

“I liked the way you and that guy did the hymn this morning,” he said. “It touched me.”

“It was supposed to be like that,” she said before she could catch herself.

He smiled and shook her hand.

“Thank you.”

Peace,

Milton

lenten journal: metaphors in motion

“Metaphors in Motion”—Mark 11:1-11
A Sermon for First Church of Christ, Congregational of East Haddam, Connecticut
Palm Sunday, March 25, 2018

When we talk about it, we make it sound like a parade: Jesus’ “triumphal entry” into Jerusalem. We picture crowds lining the streets, even throwing down their garments like a red carpet, waving palm branches, and shouting, “Hosanna! Blessed is he who comes in the name of the Lord.” The heading for this passage added by the Bible translators reads, “Jesus Enters Jerusalem as King.”

But look at the story.

Jesus and his disciples were traveling from Galilee to Jerusalem to celebrate Passover. If we look back in Mark 10, we can see a lot of things were going on. The religious leaders were tried to trick him into a doctrinal trap by asking him questions about divorce. When the disciples tried to keep a group of children from bothering Jesus, he not only welcomed them but said they understood how to open their hearts. “Be like the children,” he said, “and you will understand what it means to follow me.”

After the kids left, a man we have come to know as the rich young ruler came to Jesus looking for validation. “I obey all the law and the prophets,” he proclaimed, even though I think he knew he was missing something. Jesus told him if he wanted to understand what discipleship was about, he would need to give up all his stuff. The man couldn’t do it. He liked his privileged life. So he walked away.

Not long after that, James and John asked Jesus if they could sit on either side of him when they all got to heaven. Though it’s not in Mark’s gospel, Jesus’ response to them almost sounds as though he said, “You did hear what I just told that last guy, right?” He spelled it out clearly: God calls us to serve, not to be served. What am I going to get out of this? is never the first question. And then, when they got to Jericho, he restored the sight of a blind man named Bartimaeus who called out to him as he entered the city. Mark says, once Bartimaeus could see, he followed Jesus, both literally and figuratively; Mark says Bartimaeus “followed Jesus down the road.” Bartimaeus could see what the rich young ruler could not.

When they got to Jerusalem, Jesus gave the disciples rather mysterious instructions about going to someone’s barn and untying their donkey. “If someone asks what you’re doing, tell them, ‘The Master needs it.’” When I was a kid, I thought this story made Jesus sound magic—like he had some sort of mind controlling power. Once the disciples used the magic words, they could have walked off with almost anything. I asked my dad about it one day and he said, “I think Jesus just knew the guy with the donkey.” I had never thought that Jesus might have planned ahead, or had friends other than those listed in the gospels. But Jesus had planned ahed. His ride into town was not spontaneous. He knew how he wanted to enter the city.

The disciples came back with the donkey, made a seat for Jesus out of their coats, and he rode into town. Mark says, “many people” spread their coats on the ground and “others” waved palm branches. Our collective Christian imagination over the centuries has turned this into a city-wide celebration, but I’m guessing it was on a much smaller scale, and not very royal at that. It was a metaphor in motion. A real king would have ridden into town in a chariot, or at least on a fine stallion. He would have been flanked by protection. The point would have been a presentation of power.

Jesus rode bareback on a mule. A farm animal. A beast of burden. And he entered the city with all the pomp and circumstance of a neighborhood parade, except parade implies a procession of some sort. He was not proceeced, protected, announced, or even accompanied. It was just him. Those who lined the street shouted, “Hosanna,” which comes from a Hebrew word that means “save us.” Like Bartimaeus, most everyone was looking for healing.

Yesterday, in at least eight hundred cities and towns across America, millions of people participated in the March for Our Lives, a protest calling for a serious and meaningful discussion about how we deal with firearms in our country. My town, Guilford, was the location for the Shoreline gathering because the Guilford Green is large and because our town has been affected directly by gun violence in recent days. In late January, one of our teenage boys was accidentally killed by a gun belonging to a friend’s father, who failed to keep it locked up.

I have no idea how many people were there, but it was the largest crowd I have ever seen on our green. I saw reports this morning that estimated two to three thousand gathered to hear speakers and singers. The organizers worked hard to make our informal gathering a meaningful one. And it was. The march itself was rather ceremonial: we walked a little less than a mile and ended up back where we started. But it, too, was a metaphor in motion: it was a wake-up call, an incarnational statement that we trust if we show up and listen to each other, we will find healing.

Ginger, my wife, was one of the speakers and she made a point of recognizing the privilege of those of us gathered there. Last night, I listened to Naomi Wadler, an eleven-year old who spoke at the March in Washington. She said she wanted to speak for the African-American women and girls who are victims of gun violence but never make the front page. Then she said,

It is my privilege to be here today. I am indeed full of privilege. My voice has been heard. I am here to acknowledge their stories, to say they matter, to say their names, because I can, and I was asked to be. For far too long, these names, these black girls and women, have been just numbers. I’m here to say, “Never again” for those girls, too. I am here to say that everyone should value those girls, too.

Jesus saw most everything around him. Because Jesus was astute and perceptive, I think he knew his entry into Jerusalem was anything but triumphant. He knew he was on the wrong side of the religious leaders; he knew the government considered him a menace, an instigator. And he knew his disciples were still struggling to understand who he was and what was happening. He knew he was not walking into a happy ending. It would have been easy for him to despair, or to become cynical. He had poured his life into his disciples, and they wanted him to pick a favorite. As the crowd shouted, “Hosanna,” I wonder if Jesus felt encouraged or defeated. It’s hard to tell. He doesn’t say a word.

At our march in Guilford, speaker after speaker went back over the list of mass shootings: Columbine, Sandy Hook, Las Vegas, Orlando, Parkland—I know I am not listing them all. Almost all of them lamented that after each one there has been a cry for something to be done and nothing has happened. This time, it seems, the teenagers of this “mass shooting generation” are old enough to respond and to take action. They bring energy and hope when those of us who are older have settled for cynicism and despair. They are taking to the streets of our towns and cities and call us to believe that things can change, that we can be healed.

I am not saying these kids are our messiahs as much as they offer us a lens through which to see Jesus. The people who lined the streets to welcome him came to Jerusalem every year for Passover, and every year the Romans were still in charge. That they were remembering their deliverance from Egypt while they were under Roman occupation was a bitter irony that was not lost on the Jewish people, I’m sure. And, when they shouted, “Save us,” to Jesus, I’m not sure they expected much.

But Jesus did. He believed it mattered that he was riding into town. He planned for everything down to the donkey and then he set things in motion. As he had said to James and John, he had come to serve—to give his life for others. Now he was showing them what that looked like.

If Bartimaeus did follow Jesus all the way to Jerusalem, maybe he was one of the first ones to begin to shout, much as he had done in Jericho. “Hosanna. Save us.” On this Palm Sunday, two thousand years of sadness and violence later, we are still singing the same song. “Hosanna. Save us.” As I stood on the Green yesterday, and listened to person after person call for things to change, I could hear it in our voices. “Hosanna. Save us.”

When Bartimaeus first cried out for help in Jericho, Jesus asked, “What do you want me to do for you?”
“I want to see,” Bartimaeus answered.
“Go,” Jesus said, “your faith has healed you.”

What Bartimaeus saw was that healing is hard work. The next few chapters in Mark’s gospel are filled with Jesus’ words, and most of them are not easy to take, or even to understand. There’s a good chance some of the people shouting “Save us” as Jesus entered Jerusalem were crying “Crucify him” by the end of the week. Once we are given eyes to see our world as Jesus does, we are called to be healers too.

To heal the violence in our country will take more than gathering on the Green. It will be hard work. That’s what we have to plan for. That’s what we have to choose to do. We cannot walk away like the young ruler and take shelter in our privilege. In our world of violence and grief, we need to offer not just our thoughts and prayers, but our thoughts, prayers, and actions. We need to move beyond our privilege and risk losing to serve those around us. We need to open our hearts like the children we saw and heard at the marches yesterday. Jesus is calling us to wake up, stand up, and follow him down the road—to be metaphors of motion, incarnations of God’s love, carriers of hope and healing. Let’s follow him down the road. Amen.

Peace,
Milton

lenten journal: not so black and white

It’s astonishing to see the swirl of hope and energy around the March for Our Lives, which will happen across the country tomorrow. In our little snow globe town of Guilford, Connecticut, we are having a march of our own, rather than going to one of the larger ones because our community was touched deeply by the accidental death of one of our teenagers, who was also a part of our church. For us, the issue is more than just the mass shootings; we want to address our gun culture on a larger scale.

My perspective on tomorrow has also been altered by the shooting of Stephon Clark, who was shot twenty times by two Sacramento police officers because they thought he had a gun. It was his smartphone. Stephon Clark was African-American and joins a list that is far, far too long of men and women of color who have been killed by law enforcement.

I know Clark’s shooting is not the same as a mass shooting in a school, and yet the violence feels connected to me. One of the reasons given for why police fire so many rounds is the quick response of the triggers on their guns. Perhaps they, too, need less fire power. But, lest my point get lost in that argument, what stands out to me here has to do with race.

David Hogg, one of the students who survived the shooting at Parkland, has been challenging the media for “racial parity” in governing gun violence. We all need to hear these words. If pictures help, here is the cover of TIME magazine this week, as we prepare for the March for Our Lives.

Here is the cover after the marches in Ferguson.

The reality is that the white people marching tomorrow will not face a response from militarized riot squads. We will not be tear-gassed, or considered a threat. And, most of us who are marching tomorrow did not take to the streets after Ferguson, or any number of other tragedies caused by gun violence.

Perhaps we should keep our walking shoes on.

Peace,
Milton

lenten journal: specifically

One of the cool things I got to do this week was be a part of the book launch for David Finnegan-Hosey’s new book, Christ on the Psych Ward, which I had the honor of editing. A group of about
fifty gathered at Potter’s House in Washington DC and heard David interviewed by Mike Stavlund, a fellow author and a friend. In the process of the interview, Mike commented on a particular sentence from the book where David wrote, “I was saved by specific people doing concrete things.”

The rich theological and relational truth of his words sent my mind to one of my favorite scenes from The Breakfast Club—the makeover scene—when Allison asks Claire, “Why are you doing this?” and Claire answers, “Because you’re letting me.”

The risk in relationship goes both ways. Sometimes is may even feel more difficult to be saved than it is to do the saving. Either way, it happens in both words and actions—in concrete things.

specifically

the time you left a note
the night you drove me home
the way you call to check on me
the time you paid my bill
the day you came to see me
when you picked up the phone
long after it was dark
when you listened
when you called me out
when you stood with me
at the funeral
the time you said you loved me
and the time after that
when you sat with me
and said nothing
the gift in the mailbox
the food in the fridge
when you laughed at my jokes
the time I cried and you did too
when I forgot what mattered
and you forgave me
the night you called
and said you needed help
love leaves fingerprints
on every surface

Peace,
Milton

lenten journal: career opportunity

I spent the past week in Durham, North Carolina and then took the train to Washington DC for the book launch of Christ on the Psych Ward by David Finnegan-Hosey. I rode the train home today in the snow—our fourth Nor’easter in three weeks. One forecast I read said we could get from 4-12 inches of snow. It reminded me of something my father used to say, in jest, to my brother and me when we were in high school. My memory became a short poem.

career opportunity

be a weatherman,
my father used to say,
they are wrong everyday
and they never get fired.

if being wrong everyday
is the qualification
I’ve been a weatherman
all of my life—rain or shine.

Some things we can see coming, but life is more surprise that schedule. Stay warm, friends.

Peace,
Milton

lenten journal: weather report

weather report

sometimes I learn things
from my experience
tonight I carried
in the wood so it
would be dry enough
to burn if the heat
goes out in the storm

I bought the wood after
the last nor’easter
buried our log pile
under a foot of snow
it is still buried
sometimes I learn things
from my experience

there is a stack of things
buried under the
days gone by that could
question any claim
I might make to
enlightenment—so I’ll say
sometimes I learn things

Peace,
Milton

lenten journal: snakes on a plain

I am going to be preaching several times at the First Church of Christ, Congregational of East Haddam, Connecticut over the next few weeks as they line up an intentional interim and begin looking for a new pastor. It is a lovely congregation. I got to preach there a couple of times last summer. Here is my sermon from this morning, drawing from Numbers 21:4-9 and John 3:14-21.

“Snakes on a Plain”

I must start with a disclaimer this morning: I hate snakes. Everything about them. They scare me.

I grew up in Africa, where my parents were missionaries, and I was deliberately taught to be afraid of and stay away from snakes—and for good reason. Most of the snakes we were around were deadly poisonous. I say all of that because our first reading this morning from Numbers 21 is about snakes. I am happy someone else is reading it. But before she comes to do so, I want to give you a little bit of background. The defining story for the Hebrew people is the Exodus, when God freed them from slavery and led them out of Egypt. But then they spent forty years wandering in the desert of the Sinai peninsula. Moses and his brother Aaron were their leaders. Life was unsettled and transitory. They were still figuring out who they were as a people, since that they were no long defined by their enslavement. Then Aaron died, leaving only Moses. So, yes, the people were whiny about their situation, but they were also grieving. Listen to the story.

From Mount Hor they set out by the way to the Red Sea, to go around the land of Edom; but the people became impatient on the way. The people spoke against God and against Moses, “Why have you brought us up out of Egypt to die in the wilderness? For there is no food and no water, and we detest this miserable food.” Then the Lord sent poisonous serpents among the people, and they bit the people, so that many Israelites died. The people came to Moses and said, “We have sinned by speaking against the Lord and against you; pray to the Lord to take away the serpents from us.” So Moses prayed for the people. And the Lord said to Moses, “Make a poisonous serpent, and set it on a pole; and everyone who is bitten shall look at it and live.” So Moses made a serpent of bronze, and put it upon a pole; and whenever a serpent bit someone, that person would look at the serpent of bronze and live. (Numbers 21:4-9)

Our Gospel reading from John 3 is part of Jesus’ encounter with Nicodemus, a Pharisee—a Jewish religious cleric—who came to see Jesus one night to ask questions because he was trying to figure out who Jesus was, and what Jesus was up to. Jesus was doing things that looked like things God would want done, but he didn’t act like the God Nicodemus imagined. In his answer, Jesus referenced the story from Numbers. Listen. Jesus is speaking:

“And just as Moses lifted up the serpent in the wilderness, so must the Son of Man be lifted up, that whoever believes in him may have eternal life. For God so loved the world that he gave his only Son, so that everyone who believes in him may not perish but may have eternal life. Indeed, God did not send the Son into the world to condemn the world, but in order that the world might be saved through him. Those who believe in him are not condemned; but those who do not believe are condemned already, because they have not believed in the name of the only Son of God. And this is the judgment, that the light has come into the world, and people loved darkness rather than light because their deeds were evil. For all who do evil hate the light and do not come to the light, so that their deeds may not be exposed. But those who do what is true come to the light, so that it may be clearly seen that their deeds have been done in God.” (John 3:14-21)

In the middle of Jesus’ words you heard one of the most well-known Bible verses of all: John 3:16—“For God so loved the world that God sent God’s only son that whoever believes in him will not perish but have eternal life.” But before we go to those words, let’s look at why Jesus talked about snakes to Nicodemus.

Life for the Hebrew people was a mixed bag after they left Egypt. They were no longer enslaved, which was great, but they were nomads. They had no home, no place to go. They lived in the desert, so food was not easy to find. Yes, God sent manna from heaven every morning, but God sent manna from heaven EVERY morning. The menu didn’t change. Life didn’t seem to be changing. Whatever was coming next never seemed to arrive. Then Aaron, one of their two beloved leaders, died. They began to lose hope, even to the point of wondering if God had brought them out of Egypt as some sort of cruel joke. Uncertainty. Difficulty. Failure. Tragedy. Grief. Sound familiar?

And then came the snakes.

God told Moses to make a bronze sculpture of a snake and put it on a tall pole where everyone could see it. If those who were bitten would quit looking at the ground and look up at the bronze snake, they would be healed. They would live.

Jesus and Nicodemus both knew that story. It was at the heart of their Jewish faith. Though Jesus was a long way from being crucified when he talked bout being “lifted up,” by the time John’s gospel was written, the read the words as an allusion to Jesus being “lifted up” on the cross was reasonable, but what kind of cross are we talking about?

God told Moses to make the snake so people could look at it and be healed. If I am lifted up, Jesus said, I will bring healing. The cross is not about punishment, or judgment, or payment of a debt. It is about healing. About life.

Jesus goes on to talk about judgment, or at least that is how the word has been translated, but the Greek word is krisis. Sound familiar? It is the root of our word crisis—a decisive moment, a turning point. The crisis of the snakes caused the Hebrews to look up at the sculpture, to trust the promise of God’s presence, or to get so mired down in the snakes that they saw nothing but fear and death. God’s love made flesh in the lifting up of the Jesus, the visible sign of God’s grace poured out for the world, creates a crisis, a turning point, a decisive moment for us—a receive God’s redemptive, life changing love. We can get lost in the heaviness of life or we, too, can look to Jesus for hope and healing.

If we took time this morning to name all of the things that burden our hearts, to talk about the pain we live with, to talk about our friends and loved ones who are hurting, to talk about parts of the world that are enduring unimaginable suffering, we would be overwhelmed by sadness. Maybe that’s how you feel today. You hear the story of the snakes and you think, “I know just how they feel.” We aren’t going to tell all our stories out loud, but we can bring them to the Table. We come to the Communion Table together to remember Jesus’ words to his disciples on the night before he was executed.

“This is my body, which is broken for you,” he said to those gathered.

“This is my blood poured out for you,” he told them. “As often as you do this, remember me.”

Remember. There is a centrifugal force to life that pulls us all apart. There is not a person here who is not touched by tragedy or difficulty. If we listen to the news for longer than a few minutes, it looks like our country is coming apart at the seams. We are reminded everyday that life isn’t fair.

And we come to the Table again in this decisive moment to choose to re-member ourselves—to put ourselves back together in Jesus’ name, rather than be bitten by bitterness. We lift Jesus up here at the Table and to find healing once again. If we get to a place where we cannot imagine that God comes bringing love rather than punishment we will get lost in our despair and confusion because all we can see are the snakes on the ground. And so we need to also remind one another that God’s love is the last word. We need to tell the story again: for God so loved the world . . . . Amen.

Peace,
Milton

lenten journal: telling time

When it comes to the weekends where we spring forward and fall back, acting as though we can set time and tell time and save time, I think about youth camp years ago in Texas. One of the kids in the youth group lamented that we had to get up so early in the morning—breakfast was at 8. We had a day full of activities and we needed to be up. I couldn’t change that. So I just changed the clock to Camp Standard Time and, since it was before smartphones, I had everyone set their clocks and watches ahead four hours. We had breakfast at noon, lunch at four, dinner at ten, and our evening activities finished up about 3 am.

The sunrises and sunsets that week were nonplussed. They came and went as they pleased. The stars followed their regular routes across the skies. We did nothing but pander ourselves with an illusion of convenience and control. And then we got on the busses and went home.

We can’t save time, or tell time, or even set time, but we can remember, as Tom Waits sings,

and it’s time time time, and it’s time time time
and it’s time time time that you love
and it’s time time time . . .

Peace,
Milton

lenten journal: a wrinkle in my heart

I was in fourth grade at Lusaka International School. My teacher was Mrs. Reedy. One day she came to class with a new book called A Wrinkle in Time and she said she would read to us at the end of the day if we finished our work. All it took was one afternoon of the story—a novel that actually begins, “It was a dark and stormy night . . .”—and we were hooked. We hit the door in the morning asking what we had to get done so she would read to us. I fell in love with the story, I fell in love with books, and I felt connected to Madeleine L’Engle. She was a writer who made physics sound like poetry, who made big things seem small and small things seem big. She started me thinking about time, about life, and about faith in ways no one else did.

I love that story and I love my memory of that story.

When I was a youth minister in Fort Worth, twenty years later, I discovered L’Engle’s theological writings and I wrote her a letter and sent it to her publisher. “Dear Madeleine,” I said, “You have been a friend of mine for a long time, though you don’t know it.” I told her about Mrs. Reedy and about her writings and about me. A few weeks later, I got a letter back, typed with a handwritten signature, and, for awhile, she and I corresponded until I received a form letter after her husband Hugh died. “He became ill at Epiphany,” she wrote, “and he died just after Pentecost,” instead of saying he got sick in January and died in May. Her sentence inspired me to learn how to tell time differently.

Though I had a couple of near misses, I never got to meet her. I have read most all of what she wrote, and most of it more than once. There are several of her books that I return to again and again, Wrinkle being at the top of the list. I love that story. And now there’s a big budget movie version of it coming out and I don’t know how to respond.

I’ve have spent some time on this dark and stormy night reading reviews and watching the trailer of the movie that opens this weekend. The director sounds like someone who loves and values the story. She has worked hard to honor it. That’s not my issue. I get hung up at the clip in the trailer when Mrs. Which, the character played by Oprah says, “Be a warrior.” That has never been the heart of the story to me. Someone will probably write back and give me the page number where she says that line, but that’s not my point. There’s a difference between struggle and war. Meg and Charles Wallace struggle to find their father, they stand up against the evil force, but it’s not war. War answers violence with violence; the power that sustains in the story I remember is love.

My point, however, is not to criticize the movie, as much as it is to be thankful for the book. As one of the characters says,

A book, too, can be a star, “explosive material, capable of stirring up fresh life endlessly,” a living fire to lighten the darkness, leading out into the expanding universe.

I learned that, first, in fourth grade. Because of Mrs. Reedy, I have a story that has marked my life for over fifty years. It is not an exaggeration to say A Wrinkle in Time helped to shape me, to make me Milty. And I am definitely not a warrior.

A quote I carry from one of the other Books That Shaped Milty, The Little Prince, says,

It is only with the heart that one can see rightly. What is essential is invisible to the eye.

I hold Wrinkle in my heart. I think I’ll read it again instead of going to the movie.

Peace,
Milton

lenten journal: soundtrack for the storm

Quinn, the storm, has been making its way across America and gets to the East Coast early tomorrow morning, which set me thinking about storm songs, mostly from a metaphorical sense. I couldn’t help but begin my soundtrack for the storm with Kris Kristofferson’s cover of Bob Dylan’s “Quinn the Eskimo (The Mighty Quinn)”

Dougie MacLean is a Scottish songwriter who wrote one of my favorite storm songs, “I Am Ready for the Storm,” which he sings here with Kathy Mattea.

Somewhere in searching for storm songs, I remembered Julie Miller’s wonderful song, “By Way of Sorrow,” which is covered here by Lucy Kaplansky.

And Patty Griffin sings of weathering life together in “Little Fire.”

John David Souther sings about the “Little Victories” we all need to survive.

And I’ll close my song list with a hopeful word from Mark Heard: “In the eye of the storm, the friends of God suffer no permanent harm”–and that includes us all.

Peace,
Milton