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lenten journal: thank you

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April 11, 2017

In a staff meeting recently, we were discussing ways to improve our daily processes—ways to make things more effective and, well, easier on everyone. E-mail is our primary means of communication, since not everyone is in the same office. We all get lots of e-mail. In the course of the discussion, one person suggested that we go back to something they had done previously, which was to not send thank you notes when someone completed a task or answered a request. “We know we’re thankful; we don’t need to say it.”

I’ve been thinking about those words for a week.

My previous corporate experience, working at the computer store, we were trained to say thank you at every turn. The only thing we were taught to assume was positive intent. Any word of gratitude or praise was worth saying out loud or writing down, both as words of encouragement and also to grow the trust necessary for more difficult feedback, should the need arise. Letting the thanks go unsaid sets the stage to let other things go unsaid as well—things that need to be said, but are not said easily. After five years in that environment, it’s not surprising that I was startled by the idea for foregoing saying thank you for the sake of a few seconds and one less e-mail or two, but what has haunted me about the suggestion runs on another level.

Life has a centrifugal force that pulls us apart. The flow of our days, from e-mail to errands, from schedules to surprises, draws us away from each other unless we choose differently. The day to day demands can lead us to see those around us as little more than furniture. We don’t need to know the names of the people at the dry cleaners, or the grocery store line. We just need them help us get our stuff done. Closer to home, we each have our family roles to play, or our work roles, with people we know and love, yet life pulls us apart just the same. When Paul wrote, “Give thanks in all circumstances; for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus for you,” in 1 Thessalonians, who he was calling us to thank is not specified. Thank God? Certainly. Over the past few days, it has also struck me that I am not misreading the text to think he might also be calling us to a more extravagant expression of our gratitude: say thank you every chance you get.

Thank you for making the bed. Thank you for pouring my coffee. Thank you for opening the door. Thank you for filling my water glass. Thank you for doing you job. Thank you for answering my e-mail. Thank you for picking up our trash. Thank you for doing a job I would never want to do. Thank you for showing up. Thank you for—well, just thank you.

Every little gust of gratitude blows against the centrifugal force of life, pulling us closer together. It is not a waste of time, nor is it merely meeting an expectation or an obligation; to say thanks is to recognize our shared humanity, to relish in the resonance of being created in the image of God. Don’t think for a minute that it doesn’t matter.

Thanks
by W. S. Merwin
Listen
with the night falling we are saying thank you
we are stopping on the bridges to bow from the railings
we are running out of the glass rooms
with our mouths full of food to look at the sky
and say thank you
we are standing by the water thanking it
standing by the windows looking out
in our directions

back from a series of hospitals back from a mugging
after funerals we are saying thank you
after the news of the dead
whether or not we knew them we are saying thank you

over telephones we are saying thank you
in doorways and in the backs of cars and in elevators
remembering wars and the police at the door
and the beatings on stairs we are saying thank you
in the banks we are saying thank you
in the faces of the officials and the rich
and of all who will never change
we go on saying thank you thank you

with the animals dying around us
taking our feelings we are saying thank you
with the forests falling faster than the minutes
of our lives we are saying thank you
with the words going out like cells of a brain
with the cities growing over us
we are saying thank you faster and faster
with nobody listening we are saying thank you
thank you we are saying and waving
dark though it is

Peace,
Milton

lenten journal: at a loss for words

Milton Brasher-Cunningham

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April 9, 2017

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I think it was the early Nineties when I first started keeping a Lenten Journal as a spiritual practice. It was before I had e-mail or any kind of web access. For the first few years, I would choose one friend and write him or her an entry everyday without their even knowing I was doing so. On Easter Monday, I printed it all out, went to Kinko’s and had it bound, and then mailed it to them. When I began using e-mail, I widened the scope and sent it out nightly. In December 2005, I started writing this blog and made it a part of what I did here, along with continuing to send it to the e-mail list. Every year there are a few days when, for one reason or another, I don’t get to write.

This year has been different. I am doing well. There are no major crises in my life. When I sit down to write, however, I haven’t been able to find the words. Since I started my new job last summer, I have read more than I have in years. My heart and my mind are full. It’s not that I don’t have ideas. I even jotted some notes this afternoon. Yet, when I come to this page, I feel compelled to be quiet. It’s not writer’s block. There are things to say; it’s just not time for me to say them. I want to listen, right now, more than I want to speak, which may be one of the most uncharacteristic sentences I have ever written.

Someone sent me a note today to make sure I was alright, so I decided to write about why I have not written, mostly to say this year turned out differently than I expected. My silence is not a crisis; it’s just silence. It—like the twenty-five years of Lenten Journals, I suppose—is not permanent. I will write again soon. That’s about all the schedule I have.

Thanks for sharing the journey.

Peace,
Milton

lenten journal: changing my daily grind

Milton Brasher-Cunningham

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March 30, 2017

4

I’m learning to drink my coffee black.

As far back as I can remember, I have put cream in my coffee. I have often said that if the day came that the doctor told me I couldn’t use half and half, I’d cash in my chips right there. But the doctor wasn’t the one who said it. I did. I am making some choices to work on my health—specifically my weight, which I had allowed to set a world record for The Amount of Milton on the Planet. The program I chose has called me to examine my relationship with food, and to make some choices about what I eat and drink for the near future.

Jesus said we did not live by bread alone. Right now, I’m living without bread at all. Or cream. Or butter. But I digress . . .

One of the lessons I am learning (again) is how comfortable I can become with my choices, even when they aren’t getting me where I want to go. One of my favorite miracle stories is Jesus’ encounter with the man at the pool of Bethsaida who had been trying to beat everyone to the water everyday for thirty-eight years without success—and he kept doing the same thing. Jesus saw him and asked, “Do you want to get well?”

Once again, the tone is difficult to discern, but it’s one of my favorite questions.

I cook healthy food. I work hard to open as few packages as possible, to eat fresh, to eat local, to use up what I have and not waste, and I have eaten my grief for the past few years. Even when the food is good for you, if you eat too much it leaves its mark. In some ways, I suppose, the weight is more symptom than problem. I have felt alright, but not at my best. I have felt like myself. And there’s the part about my doctors saying my weight would have a direct effect on things like my blood pressure, my sleep apnea, and the possible return of my atrial fibrillation.

To find my way back to health means, when it comes to food, I am having to tear the house down so I can rebuild it. Everything needs to be up for examination, for negotiation. And so, I am learning to take my coffee black. I will not have to live at these extremes forever, but this is the call for mow. It sounds more dramatic than it feels to live it. The biggest challenge for me has been coming to terms with how this program differs theologically with how I think about food. They aren’t making a theological case, but that’s how it hits me. “You eat to live, not live to eat,” they say. Though I understand the idea that I don’t want to be driven by my appetites, I do live to go to the table because of who else gathers there. The point of the meal is the fellowship more than the food, but I live to eat, and not eat alone. Check the masthead on the blog. The most difficult part of keeping my promises these days is the program most all of the social and spiritual meaning of mealtime as gone the way of the half and half in order for me to answer the call to better health.

I don’t think the two will always remain at odds, but so it is for now. Maybe that’s it: we are called to answer for now, and then called to renegotiate and reconsider when tomorrow comes, responding to new calls, to new hopes, to new expressions of the creative work of God in our lives. God’s call is not necessarily to stick with the familiar or the comfortable, though that would be nice. The call—or at least part of it—is to repent. To come to terms with what we learn and what we see and reorient our lives in response. When Jesus asked the man if he wanted to get well, the man responded by telling him that he didn’t have anyone to help him get to the pool. He didn’t answer the question. Jesus listened and then said, “Get up and walk.”

Rachel Held Evans says,

[Life] is just death and resurrection, over and over again, day after day, as God reaches down into our deepest graves and with the same power that raised Jesus from the dead wrests us from our pride, our apathy, our fear, our prejudice, our anger, our hurt, our despair. (21)

I trust her list is not exhaustive. I look down in my empty coffee cup and realize what I am about here is a slow resurrection, but a coming to a new life nonetheless. I don’t mean to be overly dramatic, but my cream-less coffee offers me hope. I look forward to the day when we can talk about it over dinner.

Peace,
Milton

lenten journal: your name here

Milton Brasher-Cunningham

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March 29, 2017

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Sunday morning I got up early and drove about an hour down I-95 to hear Rachel Held Evans preach at Christ Church in Greenwich, Connecticut, where she was speaking as a part of their very cool Courage and Faith series. Her sermon came from the story of Jesus healing the blind man in John 9. It is one of the stories from the gospels that most intrigues me beginning with the way the disciples start talking about the guy as if he were some sort of prop for their theological inquisitiveness: “Rabbi, who sinned, this man or his parents, that he was born blind?” I halfway expect the man to say, “Hello—I may be blind, but I can hear you. Sitting right here.”

Rachel did a great job with her sermon—I took good notes—and her words sent my mind places her homily didn’t go. I went back to my ongoing fascination with what the gospel writers say and what they leave out. This story goes on for a whole chapter, and covers some time as well. The man keeps going back and forth between the authorities, his family, and Jesus, then back to the authorities. And we never know his name.

After church, Rachel spoke more informally in the chapel, and talked a little about the book she is writing currently that has to do with how we look at the Bible, and she said,

Because the Bible is the Bible, we get talked out of our intuitive understanding of what genre of literature we are reading.

In the margin of my notebook I wrote three questions: How did they remember the story? How long did it take to make meaning out of the moment? What sent them back looking for it?

Those aren’t the only things I wonder. John’s gospel didn’t become an actual thing for sixty or seventy years after the man received his sight. What made this story one of the ones they remembered? How did they get the quotes from his meetings with the authorities? And, as I most always wonder when I read the gospel stories, with what kind of tone did he deliver lines like, “I have told you already, and you would not listen. Why do you want to hear it again? Do you also want to become his disciples?”

Over the past several weeks, I have immersed myself in “The Art of . . .” series by Graywolf Press. I’ve almost gotten through all these little gems on writing. The one I finished the day after I drove to Greenwich was The Art of History: Unlocking the Past in Fiction and Nonfiction by Christopher Bram. Rachel’s words made me think of some things he said about how we look at the past. First he said,

“The past is a foreign country,” L. P. Hartley famously wrote in The Go-Between: “they do things differently there.” . . . We experience this historical difference most keenly through details, the odd objects or striking moments or alien bits of behavior that snap another world to life. (35)

And then,

I believe the past is different but similar enough for us to see ourselves reflected there. . . . We see ourselves new in the fun-house mirror of history. (56)

In the margins, I wrote another question: Can we say we see ourselves new in the fun-house mirror of scripture?

We remember stories—Bible stories, stories from literature, stories about our family and friends that we lived through or have heard about—because that is how we remember who we are, who God is, what we all mean to each other. Maybe they kept telling the story because of the disciples’ question about the cause of the man’s disability. In recent days, I have come to remember this story differently because of the way my friend Kenny tells it. The change has to do with punctuation. As much as I like this story, one verse—Jesus’ answer to their question—has been a bit of stumbling block because it reads:

“Neither this man nor his parents sinned; he was born blind so that God’s works might be revealed in him. We must work the works of the One who sent me . . . .

Kenny offers a different way of punctuating that offers a different way to remember:

“Neither this man nor his parents sinned; he was born blind. (PERIOD) So that God’s works might be revealed, we must work the works of the One who sent me . . . .

It helped me see the story with new eyes. Everyone in the story but Jesus and the man kept looking for reasons or something other than simply seeing he was no longer blind. That was the news. Rachel said,

When God does something through someone unexpected, it’s still God—even when God doesn’t follow the script.

What matters most in the story is the man was blind and then he could see, and he could see he was loved by Jesus. When I look at this story in my Bible fun-house mirror, I have one more thought about why the guy is never named. Perhaps it’s an invitation. There in the mirror—can you see it? It says, “Your Name Here.”

Peace,
Milton

lenten journal: light matters

Milton Brasher-Cunningham

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March 25, 2017

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light matters

I stopped at the sink to rinse out my coffee cup
at the very instant that the rising sun shot

anticipatory flames of color from below the horizon,
igniting the clouds with incendiary hope for just a minute . . . .

Before I could call you to the window the fire had flattened into
the familiarity of sunshine—light all around us—not just promises.

A friend told me about a man whose dog left the yard
everyday at dusk . . . . one evening he followed,

and found the hound sitting on a hill watching the sunset.
He followed again the next day, and the day after that—

sitting,each night, next to the dog as the fading daylight
colored itself into the gathering dark. No one said a word.

And it dawns on me that life is made up of missed moments,
of unseen sunsets and empty early morning kitchen windows.

I don’t say that as lament, but to name the grace that offers
a sunrise and and the kindness of those we can follow.

Peace,
Milton

lenten journal: there is a river

Milton Brasher-Cunningham

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March 22, 2017

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I didn’t write over the weekend because I made a trip back to Durham, North Carolina to take care of some business and see some friends. I am grateful that the necessity of the former offered the gift of the latter. Since I had some things that needed to get from Guilford to Durham, I drove. From our house here in Connecticut to the house we own in Durham is not quite seven hundred miles, door to door–at least, taking the route I chose.

The mapping programs say the best way is to go straight down I-95, but that means going through New York City, Philadelphia, and Washington DC. No, thank you. I chose a to go around, if you will: I crossed the Hudson on the Tappan Zee Bridge, wandered through New Jersey, Pennsylvania, quick swatches of Maryland and West Virginia, cut down in Virginia to Richmond, and then shot down I-95 (to I-85) into Durham.

The drive is beautiful, even with a late-winter landscape. I drove all the way back on Monday, and I left early enough for it to drive in the daylight most all the way. The mountains got bigger the closer I got to the Hudson, but it was the rivers that really pulled me. My eight-state-one-day jaunt took me across rivers with history, rivers of poetry, rivers of great names: the James, the Shenandoah, the Potomac, the Delaware, the Susquehanna, the Hudson. A couple of them were wide enough to feel detached from either side as I crossed. These are rivers that shaped people, that carried people, that hindered people, that killed people. These are waters with wisdom I will never know. I’ve flown over them many times. Monday, I was grateful to be crossing them, to be noticing them. I was thankful I took the time to travel.

I woke up this morning still thinking about those rivers, and on the train ride I looked up a river poem I remembered, Langston Hughes’ “The Negro Speaks of Rivers.”

I’ve known rivers:
I’ve known rivers ancient as the world and older than the
flow of human blood in human veins.

My soul has grown deep like the rivers.

I bathed in the Euphrates when dawns were young.
I built my hut near the Congo and it lulled me to sleep.
I looked upon the Nile and raised the pyramids above it.
I heard the singing of the Mississippi when Abe Lincoln
went down to New Orleans, and I’ve seen its muddy
bosom turn all golden in the sunset.

I’ve known rivers:
Ancient, dusky rivers.

My soul has grown deep like the rivers.

Something in those words reminded me of a T-Bone Burnett song from the 90s called “River of Love.”

there’s a river of love that runs through all time
but there’s a river of grief that floods through our lives
it starts when a heart is broken into
by the thief of belief in anything that’s true
but there’s a river of love that runs through all time

I was in my thirties when I first heard the song. I hear the second line differently now, because I have felt the flow of the river of grief quite profoundly in the last few years. But Burnett goes on to name other rivers as well, all of which feed and flood our lives along the way.

Several years ago, I learned of Peter Mayer, a wonderful singer-songwriter who has several songs that speak to me, and I have written of him before. The one that came to mind as I thought of my journey is called “God is a River.”

in the ever-shifting water of the river of this life
I was swimming, seeking comfort; I was wrestling waves to find
a boulder I could cling to, a stone to hold me fast
where I might let the fretful water of this river round me pass

and so I found an anchor, a blessed resting place
a trusty rock I called my savior, for there I would be safe
from the river and its dangers, and I proclaimed my rock divine
and I prayed to it protect me and the rock replied

God is a river, not just a stone
God is a wild, raging rapids and a slow, meandering flow
God is a deep and narrow passage and a peaceful, sandy shoal
God is the river, swimmer, so let go

After years of singing “on Christ, the Solid Rock, I stand,” the metaphor exploded with resonance the first time I heard it, and Monday, as I drove back to Connecticut, feeling as though I was driving from home to home and still learning what all of that means for our lives, I felt grateful to be caught in the flow of love, of grief, of God.

Peace,
Milton

P. S. In searching for my river songs, I found this one by Leon Bridges, simply called “River.” The video is compelling; the song is beautiful. You’re welcome.

lenten journal: no locks

Milton Brasher-Cunningham

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March 15, 2017

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Uncle Howard and I met for breakfast again this morning, as has been my lenten custom thus far, and he woke me with these words:

Again and again, we are impressed with the fact that little things can make big differences. A little act of kindness at a moment of great need makes all the difference between sunshine and shadows. . . . There is always a place for the graceful gesture, the thoughtful remark, the sensitive response. It is what may be called “living flexibly.” (117)

Living flexibly. I turned that phrase over in mind for awhile after I read it, working to catch its meaning in the light of his remarks. What I see in those two words is a call to live outside of myself. If I am not flexible enough to look up from what fills up my day—my life—to see an opportunity for a graceful gesture, as he called it, then I am too busy, or too stressed, or too structured to be a conduit of kindness. But he wasn’t through:

It is easy enough to be gracious and sympathetic with other people when they are in need or facing some great tragedy. . . . But it is a far greater test of what a [person] lives by when, in the midst of the monotony of the daily round, he [or she] keeps alive a sense of wonder, awe, and glory. (118)

I was working from home today, so I didn’t ride the train into New York, but the first person who popped into my head was Joe, the conductor on my car. Yes, I ride in the same car everyday—and it’s because of Joe. I’m sure I have spoken of him before, yet he is worth mentioning again because he is one who incarnates what Thurman was describing. This man rides a train for a living, walking up and down the aisles of the cars asking for and punching tickets; he announces the stops, and then opens the doors when we reach each one. All day. I see Joe in the morning on my way to work and in the evening as I am coming home, and his daily demeanor doesn’t change. He is indiscriminate in the way he distributes his goodwill, even in the middle of a bunch of drowsy, even surly, communters. He has an amazing ability to remember who is on the car, along with details about their lives. I’ve heard him ask about first days of school for children of the commuters, about job interviews. He cares and he remembers. He doesn’t wait for a crisis to be helpful or graceful; he has chosen to be that way on a daily basis.

I’ve noticed Joe because I have not experienced another conductor who does their job in the same way. He doesn’t engage people as he does because of job training, he does it by personal intention: he means to be kind.

After I finished reading my daily Thurman, I moved on to The Writer’s Almanac for my morning poem and found these lovely words of William Stafford:

Our father owned a star,
and by its light
we lived in father’s house
and slept at night.

The tragedy of life,
like death and war,
were faces looking in
at our front door.

But finally all came in,
from near and far:
you can’t believe in locks
and own a star.

I was so—what’s the word I want?—haunted by the images in the poem, I didn’t wait to make it a part of this post; I put it straight on Facebook. I think it’s the last two lines that grabbed me by the heart the most:

you can’t believe in locks
and own a star.

But when I backed up to the second verse, I began to see Stafford understood the flexibility and wonder Thurman was talking about:

The tragedy of life,
like death and war,
were faces looking in
at our front door.

What Stafford is saying about his father was “in the midst of the monotony of the daily round, he keeps alive a sense of wonder, awe, and glory.” Day in and day out, there were people at the door because the one who lived inside had a star and was willing to share. Stafford’s words took me back to a favorite song of mine, written by Bill Mallonee, called “Look At All The Stars.”

father often brought me here and I loved to see him smile
it was hard to tell which one of us was the little child
he would stretch his arms out wide he would hold me to his heart
and he’d say, “look at all the stars”

life is never a path that’s straight there’s so much gets in the way
yeah, from here to kingdom come there’s so much can make you numb
still I’ll always have that light ever-etched inside my heart
as I recall myself at night as I stood out in the yard
yeah, look at all the stars . . .

In 1951, Thurman wrote that gracious living “is the antidote to much of the crudeness and coarseness of modern life. Our reputation for bad manners and for rudeness is unenviable.” (117)
Though he might be shocked at just how coarse things have become, he still has a point: we have a choice in things both big and small. We can contribute to the coarseness and isolation, or we can find ways to unlock our lives as little lights of hope and grace–and fill the sidewalks with star shine.

No locks, just love.

I’ll let Bill take us out . . .

Peace,
Milton

lenten journal: the waiting

Milton Brasher-Cunningham

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March 13, 2017

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I read some more of Howard Thurman’s Deep is the Hunger on the train to New York this morning, and found myself trying to imagine what he sounded like by the tone of his writing, which has a centering nature about it. I called my friend Kenny tonight, who studied with Thurman in the late seventies in San Fransisco. When I asked what his voice sounded like, Kenny said, “Deep—rich and deep;” just as I imagined. Kenny also talked about the way he told stories about things he noticed or engaged. I looked back over what I had read today and a story in the middle of one of the pieces that spoke to me. It was about waiting, which is the hardest part.

We are waiting for a storm that has been named Stella.

Thurman was talking about waiting as a synonym for patience. Here’s the story I was talking about, which has to do with a snow storm:

Several years ago, I spent three wintry days visiting Dalhousie University in Nova Scotia. A young medical student drove me in his car to keep various appointments. I was impressed with the fact that, despite the huge snow drifts, he refused to use chains. There was quite a ceremony every time he started out. First, he would let his clutch out slowly, applying the gas very gently as he chanted, “Even a little energy applied directly to an object, however large, will move it, if steadily applied and given sufficient time to work.” Not once during our experience was his car stalled in the snow. Of course, he knew how to wait. (53)

As I wait for the storm, I am waiting for the inevitable. I am waiting for something to happen to me. I have prepared as I can—bought groceries, cleared the driveway for the snow plow, brought wood into the house, charged up everything should the power go out—but waiting for a storm is mostly a passive thing. Thurman’s waiting is not the same.

Waiting was not inactivity; it was not resignation; it was a dynamic process, what Otto calls “The numinous silence of waiting.” Sometimes I think that patience is one of the great characteristics that distinguishes God from [humans]. God knows how to wait, dynamically; everybody else is in a hurry. Some things cannot be forced but they must unfold, sending their tendrils deep into the heart of life, gathering strength and power with the unfolding days. (53)

You’ve picked up, by now, that my mind works with a soundtrack. I wasn’t too far along in the quote when I heard John Mayer singing “Waiting for the World to Change.”

me and all my friends we’re all misunderstood
they say we stand for nothing and there’s no way we ever could

now we see everything that’s going wrong with the world and those who lead it
we just feel like we don’t have the means to rise above and beat it

so we keep waiting . . . waiting on the world to change
we keep on waiting . . . waiting on the world to change

From almost the first time I heard that song, I could hear that Mayer was leaning into those who had come before him. The chord progression is the same as Curtis Mayfield’s “People Get Ready.” I have no doubt that he did it on purpose. He leaned into to someone who knew more about how to change the world than he did.

But while Mayer keeps on waiting, Thurman calls us to keep on moving. He understood that his statements on patience could be interpreted to say those who are waiting for change have to just live with injustice until things turn around. So he kept writing:

There are situations that must be changed, must be blasted out, there is a place for radical surgery. Patience, in the last analysis, is only partially concerned with time, with waiting; it includes also the quality of relentlessness, ceaselessness and constancy. It is the mood of deliberate calm that is the distilled result of confidence. (54)

I read a story this morning in the New York Times about a group of alumni and others at Georgetown University who founded the Georgetown Memory Project. In 1838, the Jesuit university sold 272 slaves to Louisiana. The GMP site says, “University folklore says they perished without a trace, but hundreds survived the Civil War. Thousands of descendants are alive today.” They are working now to find those descendants and find out as much as they can about the people who were sold to help the stories that have been waiting to continue. The article in the Times tells the story of Frank Campbell, one of those who was enslaved.

A little later in the morning, I received an e-mail message from Sarah, Ginger’s co-pastor, introducing us to a teacher at the high school who has been doing research on slaves in Guilford and Madison, the town just east of us. So far, they have discovered over eighty people who were enslaved here.

I am grateful for the folks at Georgetown and the teacher here in Guilford who are working to tell these stories that have been waiting to be told. I am thankful for their tenacity. Their determination. And I am reminded of how many folks in our country wait patiently—that is Thurman’s definition of patience: with relentlessness, ceaselessness, and constancy—for those of us who live by a more privileged timetable to see the injustice and to help change things. The truth is we need to be more restless, more ceaseless, more vocal (That’s not new information, that’s just me waking up.)

In another place, Thurman says, “We do not sin against humanity; we sin against persons who have names, who are actual, breathing, human beings.” (99) Like Frank Campbell. It would not be hard to name others. And they are waiting to be named.

Peace,
Milton

lenten journal: for the record

Milton Brasher-Cunningham

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March 9, 2017

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Bryan is one of the folks who was a part of the youth group at University Baptist Church in Fort Worth back when I was Youth Minster. He mentioned in a post that today marked the thirtieth anniversary of the release of U2’s The Joshua Tree. In a comment, one of his friends told how he skipped school to go get the record and was at home getting his bike to ride to the record store, when his dad walked in with what he said was the first one they took out of the box; they played hooky together to listen to it.

I knew about U2 because of the kids in my youth group—well, that and MTV. There was a group of guys in particular that were taken by the boys from Ireland, so much so that they almost didn’t go on our youth group ski trip that year because the record was going to drop while we were gone and they didn’t want to miss it. One of the guys, James, was the son of our Children’s Minister. She agreed to to Sound Warehouse on release day and pick up copies of the CD for all of us—and then to meet us at the airport with them when we got off the place, which she did. None of us had a CD player in the car, so we couldn’t listen till we got home, but it was a great moment nonetheless.

When the band toured later that year, they played two nights at the Tarrant County Convention Center and we were there both nights. B. B. King was the opener. And we were there when they recorded the live version of “When Love Came to Town” that’s on Rattle and Hum. But that’s not the best story. We were gathering to go in on the first night and James was nowhere to be found. When he finally showed up, we quizzed him about his tardiness, and he told us he had been with the band. He had a fantastic story about finding out where they were staying, somehow getting to their room and knocking on the door, and their opening it up and welcoming him as a reward for his bravado. We listened and hoped it were true, but we gave him a pretty hard time. Well into the concert, Bono began his introduction to “Bullet the Blue Sky” by saying, “We had an interesting visitor this afternoon,” and he went on to tell a story we had already heard, but from what it looked like on the other side of the hotel room door. Then he said, “James, this one’s for you,” and the drums and guitar kicked in as we stood in awe of our companion.

James is now a poet and a journalist and a writer in Western Massachusetts. When U2 announced they were doing a thirtieth anniversary tour for the Joshua Tree, James dropped me a note to say he was still a part of the U2 fan club, had a good lead on tickets, and would I like to go with him to see them at Gillette Stadium this summer. So that’s what we are going to do.

The Writer’s Almanac had a beautiful poem today called “Field Guide” by Tony Hoagland.

Once, in the cool blue middle of a lake,
up to my neck in that most precious element of all,

I found a pale-gray, curled-upwards pigeon feather
floating on the tension of the water

at the very instant when a dragonfly,
like a blue-green iridescent bobby pin,

hovered over it, then lit, and rested.
That’s all.

I mention this in the same way
that I fold the corner of a page

in certain library books,
so that the next reader will know

where to look for the good parts.

I read the poem over breakfast, not too long before I read Bryan’s post and his friend’s comment and went on my own melodic journey back in time. The reason the poem came back to me tonight is I don’t really have a reason for telling this story other than to tell it. As the poet said, that’s all. Well, also, I suppose, in hopes that it sets you to remembering as well.

And we might as well let B. B. and the boys take us out . . .

Peace,
Milton

P. S.–I am off on a youth retreat with my church this weekend, out into the wilds of Connecticut where there will be no phone service or wifi. You will hear from me again on Sunday night.

lenten journal: palm reader

Milton Brasher-Cunningham

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March 8, 2017

5

palm reader

I’ve been staring at my palm:
the little litany of lines that runs
from wrist to thumb, the deep-rutted
roads like poorly-planned highways
across a desert of aging skin—

dry riverbeds: canyons carved by
age and action, crossed and connected
by the lesser lines, faded reminders
of days when dreams roamed
these valleys like dinosaurs.

You’re right: I’ve been staring too long
to do much more than get lost in metaphors.
I don’t have the whole world, but there is
a handful of stories in these lines;
best to keep them open wide.

Peace,
Milton

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