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advent journal: incarnativity

I was inspired by Sarah Bessey’s wonderful post on how we tell the Nativity story and this is where her words took me.

incarnativity

when I turn in my dictionary
to define what pageant means
there’s nothing revolutionary:
a loosely connected set of scenes

our pageant is the Christmas Story
an acted-out Nativity
performed by all the little children–
incarnate creativity

the stage is filled with bathrobe shepherds
angels graced with cardboard wings
Mary, Joseph, and the baby
ensconced in a menagerie

the pageant scene is loud and crowded
a bit confused and filled with joy
a heavenly–well, we’ll just say a host
of hopeful hearts gathered ‘round the boy

we often have a different picture
of the couple traveling far
as though they walked along our highways
and underneath our sky and stars

we describe the sheep and cattle
crammed into a chilly barn
Jesus’ birth in bleak midwinter
woven into our cultural yarn

of a baby born in hardship
left to wander all alone
Horatio Alger as a Hebrew
who rose to make it on his own

our little children tell it better
that happy holy little herd
a crowd of people were with Jesus
with being the operative word

Christ was not born in a stable
but in a room a family shared
because the room for guests was taken
so they gave up what was theirs

so the child would not be born in
isolation, neither Mary all alone
others would have gathered ‘round them
to help them know that they belonged

from the start this was the message
name the boy Emmanuel
that very word means God With Us
now there’s a story we can tell

in our pageant of existence
our loosely connected set of scenes
our hopes and fears of all the years,
our weary roads and shattered dreams

gather shepherds, sheep, and angels,
bring your broken hearts and wings
we are all in this together
that is what Emmanuel means

On the eve of the impeachment vote, and thinking today of so many I know who are hurting and struggling, God with us and us with God is as good a word as I can think to say.

Peace,
Milton

advent journal: weather or not

something was in the air today
weather waiting to happen

more than once we asked each other
do you think it’s going to snow?

the forecasters on television
cover multiple micro-climates

so they say things like two to twelve
inches when it comes to snowfall

and we start postponing and
cancelling and hoping it happens

so we have a story to tell other
than the snow never came

it feels foolish to hunker down
for a storm that never shows

and it feels foolish to get caught
it the snow they said was coming

either way it’s going to feel foolish
so instead of buying bread and milk

let’s warm ourselves with wonder
and let the day go either way

we have more to talk about than
the weather and the coming storm

Peace,
Milton

advent journal: joy to the world

I started the day thinking about joy.

It is, after all, the Third Sunday in Advent, the Pink Candle Sunday, and that means the candle stands for joy. Sunday also means I start my day across the street for coffee at Blazing Fresh Donuts, which is one of the addresses joy inhabits, at least for me. I took David Whyte as my companion to hear what he had to say about joy.

Joy is a meeting place, of deep intentionality and of self-forgetting, the bodily alchemy of what lies inside us in communion with what formerly seemed outside, but is now neither, but become a living frontier, a voice speaking between us and the world.

I noticed first that the last phrase echoes the words that describe John the Baptist: a voice crying in the wilderness saying, “Prepare the way of the Lord.” He was, it seems to me, an incarnation of joy, a living frontier. I noticed second that Whyte’s definition says nothing about happiness, which is the reference points for most definitions of joy.

But joy is not overwhelming happiness any more than depression is overwhelming sadness. We are not talking a matter of degree, but a matter of substance. Happiness and sadness are circumstantial–responses to something that happens, or something someone does. The relationship is cause and effect. I was happy when I met Ginger; I was sad when my parents died. Joy is not only more than happiness, I think it is something else, something on beyond a response to circumstance. Listen to Whyte again.

Joy can be made by practiced, hard-won achievement as much as by an unlooked for, passing act of grace arrived out of nowhere; joy is a measure of our relationship to death and our living with death, joy is the act of giving ourselves away before we need to or are asked to, joy is practiced generosity.

Joy is practiced and received. It is more than a response, more than a transaction; it is a relational act. Joy is not earned, but it is cultivated. Worked for. Cultivation is a process: clearing, tilling, planting, weeding, tending, harvesting. Back-breaking work. Meaningful work. And still joy surprises, perhaps the way it feels to pick a summer tomato and eat it standing in the garden, or even pulling up what’s left of the garden in the late fall and filling the compost bin. Joy means coming to terms with all the light we cannot see.

It’s interesting to me that joy comes deep in Advent, but not so deep that the season is almost over. Two thirds of the way along this journey of waiting, we light the candle of joy. No angels have sung; all they have said is, “Fear not!” There is no messiah, just the hope of one. Also, we are not yet to the solstice. The nights are still getting longer. And we are talking about joy.

The way i look forward to Christmas Day changed four years ago because that is the day my brother called to say my mother was in the Emergency Room in Waco. She went home briefly after being bombarded with antibiotics, but I was on my way to Texas on January 1 and she was on her way to hospice; she died January 15. I thought about her because one of the examples of joy that Whyte gives is “the last breath of a dying patient as they create a rare, raw, beautiful frontier between loving presence and a new and blossoming absence.”

I don’t know if he had someone particular in mind, or he was imagining a scenario, but that example is flesh and blood to me. My mother was in hospice for fifteen days and over four hundred people came to see her. They told stories. Mom told stories. In the afternoons, she and I sang hymns together. She was sick and dying and filled with joy. Not denial. Not happiness. Joy: the culmination of her life of practiced generosity.

One afternoon, Ginger, my brother Miller, his wife Ginger, and me sat with Mom and read through a list of fifty names in the back of her Bible. When we said a name, she told us a story of someone she had met and found a way to insert herself into their lives, which was her particular talent, and then the lifelong friendship that followed. At her wake and funeral, I heard stories from people I knew and people I had never met who told me how she had planted herself in their lives. Most of the stories began with some sort of incidental contact that my mother turned into a connection.

I sat at a soup supper at church tonight with someone and they said they were learning that the opposite of addiction was connection. Perhaps we can say the same about fear. To allow ourselves to be joyful, Whyte says, “is to have walked through the doorway of fear, . . . the calming of our place in the living conversation . . . I was here and you were here and together we made a world.”

Early on in Advent we were reminded that the child would be named Emmanuel–God With Us. Jesus came that together we might make a world of practiced generosity, a meeting place, a belonging place, a loving presence.” Joy to the world is not a declaration, it is an invitation–with our names on it.

Peace (and Joy),
Milton

advent journal: within and without

I woke up about three minutes before my alarm was supposed to go off–or at least I thought I did. After I had showered, shaved, and dressed, I realized I had woken an hour and three minutes before the alarm. Instead of going back to bed, I made coffee and kept reading David Whyte. Today’s word was gratitude.

Gratitude arises from paying attention, from being awake in the presence of everything that lives within and without us.

I have made a practice for most of my years in church to not be on committees. I understand they are needed in many cases; I just don’t want to go to meetings. My father found incisive poetry in the fact that a group of vultures is called a committee. I understand what he meant. Soon after we got to Guilford four years ago, I got a call from one of the men at the church asking me to join the Christmas Tree Committee. He had already heard from Ginger about my reticence, and was quick to say that the group met once a year for about an hour and there were donuts. So I went.

Our work involves going out and cutting down the tree, transporting it back to the church, and setting it up in the front of the sanctuary. Because the high school choirs and orchestra use our sanctuary for their Holiday Concert the second weekend in December, we cannot put up the tree until the following weekend. Because December started on a Sunday this year, the tree will be seen for the first time on the Third Sunday of Advent.

We have had rain for two days, but it stopped long enough for us to drive a couple of miles from the church to a field owned by someone in town who had a tree for us. It was huge. Though our sanctuary can easily take a fifteen or sixteen foot tree without blocking the view from the balcony, we had to cut about six feet off of the big pine to get it down to size. Then we wrapped it in a tarp and used ratchet belts to pull the branches in to get it into the truck and then the church. All the while we were telling stories about committee meetings from other years and laughing and working together. As we got the tree in the stand and secured it to the wall with wires, others were putting the poinsettias in the windows and the bell choir was rehearsing. Everybody was working to get the house ready for tomorrow.

After the tree was secured and the donuts were consumed, I came back home and opened my computer to be reminded that today is the seventh anniversary of the mass shooting at Sandy Hook Elementary School in Newtown, Connecticut. Twenty-six people–twenty of them children–were killed by a gunman who entered the school. Tonight, I found out that the Newtown High School team came from behind to win the Class LL State High School Championship. Though none of the survivors of Sandy Hook are old enough to be on that team, it struck me that those who were killed would be teenagers now.

The rest of the day in Guilford was covered by a persistent and relentless mist. I was dogged by the grayness. I couldn’t find enough light. Ginger and I did some Christmas shopping, and then I did some on my own because my mood matched the day, so I tried to keep moving. I have been more aware of my depression of late, and today was one of those where I was tempted to not be awake–to sleep, in fact, and let the day disappear into the fog. I don’t think I can claim any great insight or motivation, other than I could tell I was tired and surly and needed to get out of the house so I didn’t take Ginger, Rachel, and the pups down with me.

Whyte talks about being awake “in the presence of everything that lives within and without us.” The last preposition could mean two things: the stuff that happens outside of ourselves, or the stuff that goes on that we are not a part of. I have my depression going on within today, and my committee outside of myself; life in Sandy Hook goes on without me. Because our town and our church have been marked by death from gun violence, I have met some of the parents from Sandy Hook, but life goes on in Newtown daily without anyone asking, “Hey, have you talked to Milton?” The same is true in any number of places around the world.

But Whyte is saying that gratitude rises from being awake in the middle of what is within me and what goes on without me, rather than needing to be thankful for something. On a gray, meandering day that was both hard and hopeful, I will say I think he’s on to something.

Peace,
Milton

advent journal: found in translation

I’ve had a full day.

It’s Wednesday, so it’s my day to go to New York. The trip was made a bit more adventurous by early morning snow fall in Connecticut, but there was none in the city. I left a little early to get back to meet Ginger, Rachel, and Jake and Gerhard to drive up to Chester, Connecticut to see A Connecticut Christmas Carol at the Terris Theater, which is affiliated with the Goodspeed Opera House, which is known for its musical performances.

The story is the one we all know about Scrooge, but they gave it a Connecticut twist. J. P. Morgan was Scrooge’s old partner who came back to warn him (and William Gillette played Scrooge), Benedict Arnold was the Ghost of Christmas Past, P. T. Barnum was the Ghost of Christmas Present, and Mark Twain wrapped it all up as the Ghost of Christmas Future.

The script was well-written, the songs were good, and the performances were excellent. Here is Bob Cratchit singing a song called “Carry On” with his kids, just to give you a taste.

As I said, we all knew where the story was going. Tiny Tim even said, “God bless us, every one.” But there was one addition in particular that caught my ear. A word I couldn’t quite get was mentioned first by Barnum and then later by one of his heirs. It sounded like Wakeshau, which is a Native American word or the name of a town in Wisconsin or an insurance company, but the story in the play was that it was a Norwegian word that meant “everything is for each other.”

I don’t know if there really is such word in Norwegian, or any other language for that matter. I do know that the translation, if you will, made my day. I knew it was going to be late before I got to write tonight. But sitting in the dark watching Scrooge find his heart, I thought, “It doesn’t need to be a long post. All I really need to say is everything is for each other.”

So I will. Everything is for each other.

Peace,
Milton

advent journal: deja war

I started ninth grade in September of 1970, a little over a year after Woodstock, which meant there was time for the soundtrack album to make its way to Nairobi just as I got my first guitar that Christmas. A new world opened up: Canned Heat singing “Going Up the Country,” Crosby, Stills, and Nash singing “Wooden Ships” and “Suite: Judy Blue Eyes,” Richie Havens’ “Freedom,” Joan Baez singing “Drugstore Truck Driven’ Man,” and Jimi Hendrix playing the National Anthem.

I took my guitar to school because there were several others that did as well, and they all played better than I did. One of them figured out the chords to a lot of the Woodstock songs, so those were some of the first I learned. “I Feel Like I’m A-Fixing to Die Rag” by Country Joe and the Fish was the tune that taught me how to make a bar chord. I had to slide up on the first line of the chorus, one fret at a time . . .

and it’s one two three
what are we fighting’ for
don’t ask me I don’t give a damn
next stop is Vietnam
and it’s five six seven
open up the pearly gates
well, there ain’t no time to wonder why
whoopee we’re all going to die

Even in Kenya, we were getting news about the Vietnam War. Even in our small American community, there were those who had lost family and friends to a conflict that made no sense. So we learned and sang protest songs and hoped the war was over before we turned eighteen, and we sang loud.

well, come on generals, let’s move fast
your big chance has come at last
gotta go out and get those reds
the only good commie is the one who’s dead
and you know that peace can only be won
when we’ve blown ’em all to kingdom come

I’ve thought a lot about those days this week, not because I’m feeling nostalgic since it’s been nearly fifty years since I got that first guitar, but because of the amazing report on the Afghan War released by the Washington Post–the same folks who broke the Pentagon Papers. The news is no different: this war is a lie. Those who took us to war and who keep us there cannot answer what we are fighting for. We have spent lots of money, killed lots of people, wounded even more, and we don’t know why. The ninth graders who might get guitars this Christmas have never lived a day when their nation was not at war. Neither have the seniors. And it’s not over yet.

The same year I got my guitar, Kurt Vonnegut published Slaughter House-5 Or the Children’s Crusade, a Duty-Dance with Death–a novel about the war. I didn’t read it until I was in college, but Vonnegut’s words have found me at different times in my life, and they found me again this week through–you guessed it–Brain Pickings.

In a book I have not read, If This Isn’t Nice, What Is: Advice to the Young, he says

I am so smart I know what is wrong with the world. Everybody asks during and after our wars, and the continuing terrorist attacks all over the globe, “What’s gone wrong?” What has gone wrong is that too many people, including high school kids and heads of state, are obeying the Code of Hammurabi, a King of Babylonia who lived nearly four thousand years ago. And you can find his code echoed in the Old Testament, too. Are you ready for this?

“An eye for an eye and a tooth for a tooth.”

A categorical imperative for all who live in obedience to the Code of Hammurabi, which includes heroes of every cowboy show and gangster show you ever saw, is this: Every injury, real or imagined, shall be avenged. Somebody’s going to be really sorry.

Violence is not a solution. Ever. We have all kinds of human history that makes that clear. And yet, when I make that statement, I am often told I am naive because the world doesn’t work that way. But the world, as it is, doesn’t work, period. More from Kurt:

We may never dissuade leaders of our nation or any other nation from responding vengefully, violently, to every insult or injury. In this, the Age of Television, they will continue to find irresistible the temptation to become entertainers, to compete with movies by blowing up bridges and police stations and factories and so on . . .

But in our personal lives, our inner lives, at least, we can learn to live without the sick excitement, without the kick of having scores to settle with this particular person, or that bunch of people, or that particular institution or race or nation. And we can then reasonably ask forgiveness for our trespasses, since we forgive those who trespass against us. And we can teach our children and then our grandchildren to do the same–so that they, too, can never be a threat to anyone.

Our nation has spent all but one year of this century at war, fueling ourselves with fear and revenge. Henry Wadsworth Longfellow walked the battlefield at Gettysburg in the wake of that violence and wrote

and in despair I bowed my head
there is no peace on earth I said
for hate is strong and mocks the song
of peace on earth . . .

He went on to write another verse that offered resolution, finding hope in that God was neither dead nor asleep. I don’t think that’s the issue. Vonnegut, an avowed Humanist, saw hope in Jesus’ response to violence:

When Jesus Christ was nailed to a cross, he said, “Forgive them, Father, they know not what they do.” What kind of a man was that? Any real man, obeying the Code of Hammurabi, would have said, “Kill them, Dad, and all their friends and relatives, and make their deaths slow and painful.”

His greatest legacy to us, in my humble opinion, consists of only twelve words. They are the antidote to the poison of the Code of Hammurabi, a formula almost as compact as Albert Einstein’s “E = mc2.”

Violence is not a solution to violence. Revenge doesn’t keep its promises. War, well, what is it good for?

Absolutely nothing.

Peace,
Milton

advent journal: blessed are the compost

I guess it is safe to say that my making soup for the carolers before they go out to sing on the Second Sunday of Advent is a tradition, since I have now done it for three Advents. I had recipes for two of the soups I made: Pumpkin Corn Chowder and Uncle Milty’s Guinness and Chocolate Chili (though this recipe needs to be updated). I made a third soup because I had stuff I needed to use up: a head of cabbage and the left over breakfast sausage links from Breakfast with Santa on Saturday morning. I shredded the cabbage, cut up the sausage, added some diced potatoes, garlic, and seasonings and ended up with a tasty Cabbage and Sausage Soup.

I love seeing what I can do with leftovers.

Cooking teaches you how to deal with what’s left. When I roast a chicken or a turkey, I save the bones; I also save celery and carrot scraps, as well as corn cobs. When I get enough to fill my big soup pot and I have a day at home, I make stock to use for soups I haven’t thought up yet. (You may notice that onions aren’t on my list. Ginger is allergic to them, so I have had to learn other places to find flavor.) The other way I use the scraps takes a longer look: I compost them. Even in winter.

We have two big compost bins in the church communal garden and I am diligent in saving vegetable scraps, egg shells, and coffee grounds to “feed the garden,” as my mother-in-law likes to say. I keep a plastic bucket on the kitchen counter where we collect what might be thought of as garbage but will become fuel for future food. Occasionally, some of what gets composted is something that was not used in time and began to spoil. I find relief in knowing I can do more with it than throw it away. We may not have eaten it, as I intended when I bought or picked it, but it still makes a contribution.

I have had composting on my mind because of another chapter in David Whyte’s book, Consolations. The word today was ambition. Much of what he had to say contrasted ambition and vocation. One of the things he said was,

No matter the self-conceited importance of our labors, we are all compost for worlds we cannot yet imagine.

A more poetic way, perhaps, to say we are worm food.

Since Galileo, humanity has continued to struggle, on many levels, with the reality that we are not the center of the universe. We are wonderfully and uniquely created in the image (imagination?) of God and we are appropriately insignificant. We are called to grow while we are here and we are destined to be compost for the growth that will come in seasons after us.

But temporal, or even temporary, and meaningless are not synonyms.

We may not live forever, but we are called to invest in these days. To actively participate. To live intentionally. To live like it matters that we are here, which is not the same as being famous, or even being widely remembered. Listen to Whyte again.

A vocation always includes the specific, heart-rendering way we will fail at our attempt to live fully. A true vocation always metamorphoses both ambition and failure into compassion and understanding for others.

Make no mistake. Whyte is not offering a romantic idea about failure. Tom, who is my gardening buddy from church, and I talk a great deal about how many things have to die for new things to grow. Regardless of the season, something is dying in our garden, which makes the soil and the relationships between the dirt and the nutrients and the plants and organisms all richer for the sacrifice. To say ambition and failure become compassion rephrases Jesus saying we must lose our lives to find them.

Blessed are the compost, for they feed the world with compassion.

Almost twenty-five years ago, I bought a record called The Sting of the Honeybee by Diane Zeigler. (I am happy to say you can still find it on iTunes.) I bought it because she covered James Taylor’s song “Millworker.” But one of the last tracks is the one that has burned itself into me. It is called “You Will Get Your Due.” Listen through the link at the bottom of the page while you read the words.

there’s a man that I don’t know well
but I’ve seen the way he cast his spell
straight across a room until the people had to listen
he was singing from a quiet place
and you could only hear the faintest trace
that he wonders if he’ll ever taste the kiss of recognition

but you will get your due
you will get your due
believe that there is so much more
even if it’s not right here at your door
and you will get your due

I want to call him friend
because I love the way he works that pen
and spinning stories seems to be his true devotion
but he says he’s gonna pack it in
because he doesn’t see it rolling in
he thinks that ship is somewhere lost out on the ocean

but you will get your due
you will get your due
believe that there is so much more
even if it’s not right here at your door
and you will get your due

I know you want to leave it behind
but it’s all there in your mind
and you can no more stop the songs
than stop your breathing
I can’t tell you how it’s gonna end
I know the lucky ones sometimes win
but not before they’ve paid a price
for all their dreaming

but you will get your due
you will get your due
believe that there is so much more
even if it’s not right here at your door
and you will get your due

The song used to give me hope because I thought it meant that one day I would finally get really noticed for my song lyrics or my writing. That is not what the song means to me now. I have gotten more than my due in many ways, based on the love I know and have known and the chance to sit down at night and write. But beyond that, I am compost for life and growth I cannot even see. I am–no, we are vital members of God’s imaginative work. Not leftovers or spoiled things, but created and creative compost.

Blessed are the compost.

Peace,
Milton

advent journal: give a little bit

This summer, Blazing Fresh Donuts opened across the street from our house.

They make the donuts to order. They drop the batter when you get to the counter and then you get to choose a glaze and any number of toppings and drizzles. The maple-bacon-pretzel donut is one of my creations, along with the chocolate-graham cracker-marshmallow drizzle. They also have a Boston Creme donut, which is a longtime favorite of mine.

I have taken their presence to be a sign from God, and so part of my Sunday ritual is to walk over there on my way to church to get a coffee (and, sometimes, a donut) and read for awhile before church. This morning I began reading David Whyte’s Consolations: The Solace, Nourishment, and Underlying Meaning of Everyday Words. I jumped around a bit and read “alone,” “confession,” and “giving.” Part of what he said about the latter was

To give is to make an imaginative journey and put ourselves in the body, the mind, and the anticipation of another. . . . looking for the imaginative doorway that says I know you and see you and this is how I give thanks for you.

I carried those words to church with me where Ginger preached on the humility of John the Baptist, which was an imaginative doorway I had not gone through before. She looked at the way he was willing to spend his life pointing to someone other than himself, to prepare the way for someone else. He was not intent on being the hero of his story, or anyone else’s. He opened the imaginative doorway for Jesus to walk through.

After the sermon, the choir sang a Shaker hymn as we passed the offering plates:

love is little love is low
love will make our spirits grow
grow in peace grow in light
love will do the thing that’s right

love is gentle love is small
love will find the best in all
find the peace find the light
love will find the thing that’s right

love is silent love is strong
love will sing a quiet song
sing of peace sing of light
love will do the thing that’s right

The words were printed in the order of service and I kept staring at the first phrase: love is little. It sent me back to words from Annie Dillard that I read a few days ago.

How we spend our days is, of course, how we spend our lives. What we do with this hour, and that one, is what we are doing. A schedule defends from chaos and whim. It is a net for catching days. It is a scaffolding on which a worker can stand and labor with both hands at sections of time. A schedule is a mock-up of reason and order—willed, faked, and so brought into being; it is a peace and a haven set into the wreck of time; it is a lifeboat on which you find yourself, decades later, still living. Each day is the same, so you remember the series afterward as a blurred and powerful pattern.

The quote comes from The Writing Life, and she was talking about how to get words on the page, but her sense that our lives are built by the days we live is another imaginative doorway through which we can enter a life of giving–of putting ourselves in the mind, body, and anticipation of one another. How can we give the little gifts, the daily gifts, whether they are words or hugs or things, that say, “I know you and I see you and this is how I give thanks for you”?

I love that last one: this is how I give thanks for you. How do we give the little bits of love that say that to spouses and siblings, to coworkers, to store clerks and servers? How do we become those who open imaginative doorways that make our spirits grow? I think it matters that Whyte named the doorways as imaginative and not imaginary. Imaginary is just making things up. Imaginative is to infuse small things with significance. To spend our days imaginatively is to create a life of love.

A few weeks ago, during our prayer time, a woman gave thanks for the person behind her in line at the supermarket who bent down and picked up the blueberries she dropped and that scattered across the floor. “Her small act of kindness gave me hope,” she said. Me, too.

Love is little. Love is daily. Love says, “I know you and I see you and I give thanks for you.” Imagine that.

Peace,
Milton

advent journal: cover me up

As we finish the first week of Advent, it feels like a good time to offer some music for the journey. All of the songs are covers, that is they are songs recorded by someone other than the songwriter. I hope these songs offer some warmth and light for the journey.

The first is Sara Watkins’ version of “Give Me Jesus.” Her lyrics are different from other versions I have heard, as are the quiet harmonies.

Jimmy LaFave is one of those who left us too soon. He died in 2017 after a battle with cancer. He was a wonderful songwriter as well as one who interpreted others’ songs well. Here is his cover of Pete Townsend’s “Let My Love Open the Door,” which is a wonderful theme for Advent.

when everything feels all over
everybody seems unkind
I’ll give you a four-leaf clover
take all worry out of your mind
let my love open the door
to your heart, to your heart

“Love’s In Need of Love Today” is one of my favorite Stevie Wonder songs and Joan Osborne offers this soulful version.

good morn or evening friends here’s your friendly announcer
I have serious news to pass on to every-body
what I’m about to say could mean the world’s disaster
could change your joy and laughter to tears and pain
it’s that love’s in need of love today . . .

The third verse of Mary Gauthier’s song, “Mercy Now,” says,

my church and my country could use a little mercy now
as they sink into a poisoned pit it’s going to take forever to climb out
they carry the weight of the faithful who follow them down
I love my church and country, they could use some mercy now

And here’s Kathy Mattea singing it.

“Ring Them Bells” is the first of two Dylan covers that will close out this post.

ring them bells for Saint Catherine from the top of the room
ring them bells from the fortress for the lilies that bloom
oh the lines are long and the fighting is strong
and they’re breaking down the distance between right and wrong

Sarah Jarosz is the one singing the song.

The first time I heard “To Make You Feel My Love,” Garth Brooks was singing it—and I think it was about the time the video below was recorded.

when the rain is blowing in your face
and the whole world is on your case
I could offer you a warm embrace
to make you feel my love
when the evening shadows and the stars appear
and there is no one there to dry your tears
oh, I hold you for a million years
o make you feel my love

I hope love is finding you in these days.

Peace,
Milton

advent journal: missed opportunity

I have a growing list of words and phrases I have collected from things I have read and heard. I am hoping to use them as kindling for a poetry book. Tonight, I offer one of the poems to you. The inciting phrase is “the compliment of your curiosity.” Here is what it set to burning.

missed opportunity

when my brother decided
to become a musician

I ceased to be one in
the eyes of my parents

they felt they had to choose
so we didn’t compete

but we both loved to sing
every song became his solo

I brought my guitar home from
college every chance I had

hoping for the compliment
of their curiosity

when my mother finally asked
what I was singing one Christmas

afternoon I didn’t know
how to take the compliment

I should say she meant well
but I wanted her to know

all the music she had missed
I don’t think I kept singing

or that I ever brought my
guitar home with me again

the words we think we deserve
are so much harder to hear

Peace,
Milton