lenten journal: depression


I’ve carried this idea with me for a couple of days, hesitant to share because of the gravity of the loss for the families of those who were killed in the plane crash in the Alps. I decided to risk it nonetheless.

black box

for all of the tragedy
that has marred human history
there are few satisfactory
explanations we have learned
that offer comfort instead of
blame. I’ve listened the experts
say there is evidence he was
depressed, and so he crashed the plane—
as though that would make things better.
I felt my heart sink under the weight
of their words because I know too
well the darkness visible; I’ve
done my time in the valley of
the shadow, and have seen many
faces there that I recognize.
I don’t know what happened in the
Alps, or what it feels like to be
a loved one searching for answers.
I do know what it’s like to be
trapped in the dark, hoping someone
will find a way to break down the door.



  1. I think your vulnerability and sensitivity is extraordinarily generous, Milton. Depression is such an insidious disease that many of us face. It’s good to shine a light in and on the darkness.
    …I hope you are not near that real dark place right now, Milton. I hope, too, that you’ve given those closest to you the combo to the door. Peace & Perfect Love be yours.

  2. I also have lived in the dark days. I made some necessary changes in my life and the dark days are diminishing. Change is difficult. But despression is deadly. Stay in the sun my friend.

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