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advent journal: practicing joy

Our in-person worship got snowed out today, but I was able to record from home, so this sermon got to be more than just a manuscript. Joy is the theme of the third Sunday in Advent, and the scripture was Mary’s response to her surprising circumstance. Here’s where it took me.

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Of all the things that have been written about the Bible, we don’t find a lot that talks about humor in scripture. For one thing, the books of the Bible are not that humorous, though some of that is due to the fact that we are reading translations of ancient manuscripts that distance us from the original word choice and word play and timing that are essential to a good joke.

When I taught high school English, I loved reading Shakespeare with students, but the part that was the most difficult for them to understand was the humor. Jokes don’t travel well over centuries. It’s hard to keep up with the way language changes from generation to generation, much less from century to century.

Tragedy travels better because it is grounded in events, in circumstance. The death of a parent, for example, is something we can understand across great spans of time because experience doesn’t need a translator. Tragic things just happen. Humor is an art, something that has to be crafted in the moment—and when I say humor, I mean more than a setup and a punchline. I’m talking about a way of looking at the world that helps us not take ourselves so seriously, that creates room for laughter and connection, that makes the tragedy bearable. That kind of humor is a learnable and practicable skill.

Translator Sarah Ruden says Biblical humor is a manifestation of the Bible’s joy. What I read in her words is that joy is also a skill, an art, that we can learn and practice, and the words Mary spoke after she found out she was pregnant give us a good picture of what the skill of joy looks like in practice.

The hard part for us is we have to break some stained glass to really hear what Mary is saying. Over centuries, her words have been as “The Magnificat” and then turned into any number of classical music pieces. Two of our hymns this morning are adaptations of what we often call her song, even though there’s not really indication in the text that she was singing.

Though much of the music is beautiful, it binds Mary up rather than setting her free or setting us free to see her joy at work. Sometimes that happens in the way we sing it. Our first hymn, “The Canticle of Turning,” sets the text to an old Irish folk tune, “The Star of County Down.” It was written to be accompanied energetically by guitars and fiddles and even a bodhran (an Irish hand drum) rather than by an organ and sung in a tavern as much as a sanctuary.

Under all of those layers, Mary was probably about fourteen when God’s messenger told her she was pregnant, and not much older when she went to visit her cousin Elizabeth, who was a good deal older. Mary was in the middle of a tragedy, as far as circumstances were concerned. The life she thought was about to unfold had exploded with the news of her pregnancy. Instead of getting married, Mary was going to be ostracized. Nevertheless, she told the messenger, “Let it happen just like you said,” which was her first step toward joy.

The other steps followed in the words we read this morning, which move from gratitude for God choosing her to talking about how the child she was carrying would upend the world and offer hope to those who lived outside of the realms of power and wealth—those deeply acquainted with tragedy. Those who were rich and powerful were not always going to be so. That’s the way the humor of God worked, and she was grateful to be a part of it.

Mary wasn’t acting like the tragedy wasn’t real, she was choosing to craft space for joy to live. She was choosing to see more than the tragedy, to see the uncertainty that was in front of her as room for hope to grow.

That is difficult and important work, and it is the work to which we are called as well. It’s important because tragedy, in whatever form it takes, is about separation and loss. The craft of joy is reconciling work, connecting work. It’s the idea in the carol, “Do you hear what I hear?” That’s an invitation to share in the joy that is going on around us no matter what the tragedy.

The stars keep coming out. The birds keep singing—even in the winter. The sun comes up every morning. Little babies stare at us and smile in supermarket lines. We sit in coffee hour and tell stories and laugh together. Whether big or small, the song of joy plays all around us. The question is are we willing to practice the skill to hear it?

We started by saying that scripture is hard for us to get sometimes because of the layers of translation and history that lie between us and the original versions. Still, we trust there is a reason to keep telling the stories and to keep trying to come to a deeper understanding of them, even as we continue to work to not get so attached to our version of the stories that we can’t be caught by surprise by new way of looking at them.

That same approach is what leads us to a life of faith. It is hard to make meaning out of all that happens to us. We face tragedy and difficulty, and we don’t always have a good reason for why things happen. Yet, we don’t give up. We choose not to take a fatalistic view of things, but we keep telling the stories of joy and hope, the stories of the ways God’s love and mercy finds us and saves us, and we keep working to not get so attached to our way of looking at the world that we can’t be caught by surprise.

And at the heart of the story of Jesus’ birth that we tell every year is the reminder the messenger gave to Joseph, who was reeling in the face of tragedy he didn’t understand: “Name the child Emmanuel, which means “God is with us.” Down all of the years, all of the tragedies, that is still the heart of our story: God is with us, no matter what other circumstances are our reality. God is with us, calling us to practice the art of joy. May we answer with Mary’s enthusiasm. Amen.

Peace,
Milton

advent journal: ice

ice

the rain came late
this afternoon
actually more of
a drizzle or mist
just enough
to coat the streets
before the temperature
drops below freezing

which means
we will wake to
a coating of ice
that will impair
our travel and leave
some of us stranded
or feeling fearful

I wonder
if it was a night
like this when those
who do such things
decided ICE
would be a good
acronym to
name themselves

Peace,
Milton

advent journal: aging

Tonight’s post is a video, since I have spent a good part of the afternoon and evening working on a music video which will be released on the streaming services on my birthday, Friday, December 12. I am posting here for you, and you can also find in on YouTube, if you would like to share it. You can also purchase the single on my Bandcamp page, along with a couple of other goodies. The lyric is below the video.

aging

the sunshine paints the steeple
at the dimming of the day
the light falls long and rich
and then it’s gone
it’s just another tuesday
another ordinary blues day
that feels like a lifetime
but doesn’t last for long

my joints play the percussion
orchestrating a discussion
of what it means to weather
all these years
there’s more to growing older
than bending down and getting colder
under the weight of a lifetime
with far too many tears

I’m aging
I’m stumbling through the mystery
I’m a walking breathing history
that’s sneaking up on seventy
i’m aging
my life is not diminishing
though I’m closer to the finishing
it’s the richness I’m relishing
I’m aging

the sun drops down the steeple
to welcome in the evening
the friendship of the shadows
brings me home
the distance of my youth
has grown into a nearer truth
I’m in love with a lifetime
that doesn’t last for long

I’m aging
I’m stumbling through the mystery
I’m a walking breathing history
that’s sneaking up on seventy
i’m engaging
my life is not diminishing
though I’m closer to the finishing
it’s the richness I’m relishing
I’m aging

life is holy and life is quick
the candle burns at both ends of the wick
years fly by at the speed of days
yet there’s still so far to go

I’m aging
I’m stumbling through the mystery
I’m a walking breathing history
that’s sneaking up on seventy
i’m engaging
my life is not diminishing
though I’m closer to the finishing
it’s the richness I’m relishing
I’m aging
oh, yes, I’m aging
gratefully aging

Peace,
Milton

advent journal: brain freeze

brain freeze

I have spent all day
trying to get warm

it has felt as though
the freeze was coming

from inside my bones
and working its way

through my skin
to join the frigid air

that has surrounded me
like a custom suit

no snow or ice
just freezing cold

there is probably
something else to say

but those thoughts
have yet to defrost

Peace,
Milton

advent journal: exact change

This week’s sermon is built around Matthew’s description of John the Baptist, but I wandered a bit through the Christmas story to get to him and ended up thinking about what it takes to exact significant change in our lives.

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When we read Matthew’s description of John the Baptist and the things he said to the people who came to be baptized in the Jordan River, where they were all gathered out in the middle of the wilderness, it’s a fair to ask, why are we focusing on him as we mark this Advent Sunday dedicated to hope?

For that matter, Advent is a season of anticipation for the birth of Jesus and our reading is the account of the one announcing the beginning of Jesus’ ministry as a thirty-year-old man. Why are we telling this story now?

For one thing, Matthew doesn’t spend that much time telling us about Jesus’ birth or infancy or childhood. He commits all of seven verses to what we know as the Christmas story, and most of those are about how Joseph reacted to the news that Mary was pregnant. Then Matthew spends a whole chapter talking about the Magi and the things their visit set in motion. (We will look at those stories at Epiphany.) Then he moves directly to John and the things Jesus said and did as an adult.

With that in mind, before we talk about John let’s back up to Matthew’s account of the birth because we can make an important connection there. (Matthew’s primary focus is Joseph; we will hear from Mary next week.)

This is Matthew 1:18-23.

This is how the birth of Jesus Christ took place. When Mary his mother had been betrothed to Joseph, but before they were married, she was found to have a child in her womb through the Holy Spirit. Joseph, her husband-to-be, being a decent man and not wanting to publicly humiliate her, planned to call off their betrothal quietly. But when he thought carefully about these things, an messenger from God appeared to him in a dream and said, “Joseph son of David, don’t be afraid to take Mary as your wife, because the child she carries is from the Holy Spirit. She will give birth to a son, and you will call him Jesus, because he will rescue the people from their offences.” Now all of this took place to fulfill what God had spoken through the prophet: Look! A young girl will become pregnant and give birth to a son, and they will call him by the name Emmanuel, the translation of which means, “God is with us.”

God is with us. As we engage this story in our time and in our culture, it helps to remember that the basic understanding of history in the Hebrew Bible is that the people strayed from God and then God rescued or redeemed them. The name Jesus, in fact, is from the root of the word for rescue or salvation. Whatever happened, they trusted that God was with them.

Joseph (and perhaps Mary) needed to be reminded of that by the messenger because all he could see was dead-end circumstance. The woman he wanted to marry was pregnant. The life they had anticipated—whatever that was—was not going to happen. The angel didn’t tell him any differently, other than to say for him to not break the betrothal. Stay for the birth and name the boy “God is with us,” then stay for the marriage and trust that the name will hold up.

That sense of God’s presence matters when we take a larger view of Hebrew history. It helps to keep in mind is that the Hebrew people lived through a number of exiles and oppressions over many centuries, facing circumstances where the life they had anticipated didn’t happen. A good deal of their story as it is told in the Hebrew Bible centers around those experiences. Often, the way the people understood their difficulties was that they had done something wrong to cause their exile. That’s not necessarily what God said to them, but it was often what they heard. In most every case, the main message that God continued to send was one of redemption, offering the people a chance to repent and start over.

Which brings us to John the Baptist.

The historical moment into which he stepped when he started calling people to repentance and baptism was another moment of oppression and struggle. The Romans were brutal rulers, as we will see when come back to the story of the Magi. John’s invitation for them to make changes sounded like the prophets they had heard about in Bible stories who gave people hope beyond feeling like life was difficult because they had sinned. They could make changes that mattered if they were willing to trust God was with them and see what would happen next.

He was calling them to hope, to trust that the choices they made mattered, even if they couldn’t see how that would all work out. He called them to change their purpose, to change their hearts and lives, to start anew with what they thought God could do through them.

In the centuries since John walked in the wilderness, that sense of that kind of hope hasn’t changed. None of us knows for sure what is going to happen, or how things will work out. What we can do to affect whatever is coming is to make thoughtful, dare I say prayerful choices about what we say, do, and feel; about how we treat other people; about how we spend our time and our money; about how we live out our trust that God is with us.

How, then, can we change our purpose, change our hearts, so that Christ can be born anew in our time?

That’s a big question that doesn’t necessarily require a global answer. I’m not asking how we change the world as much as how we change ourselves because that is how the world actually gets changed. Hope requires specificity, so here are three specific things to consider.

First, I invite you to daydream about who God wants you to be and what God wants you to do within your spheres of influences. Are you doing the work you feel that is most true to yourself? How can you affect the primary relationships in your life? Who do you feel call to become?

As you hold that question, I ask you to think of one specific element of your life that you would like to change, that you would like to repent. Let me offer an example. Most every fall is difficult for me because the shrinking daylight is like rocket fuel for my depression. I spend most of November and December feeling crushed by the weight of it all and doing what I can to hold on till the Solstice and the promise of longer days.

Thanks to some suggestion I read or heard somewhere, I decided to commit to getting up morning at around five so that I was awake for the sunrise. I make the coffee and I sit at my desk, which is in front of a window, and I watch the dawn break as I do the crossword and then read. Somehow that change has given me new life. I have had a burst of creative energy rather than feeling like I was falling into a hole.

Let me be clear: depression is not a sin. It has been something in my life that has kept me from being my full self, from being able to see that I am wonderfully and uniquely created in the image of God and worthy to be loved. The change I have made—my repentance, if you will—has not been because I did something wrong as much as I changed a behavior to make me more available to the world and to God.

Repentance can have a number of faces, so let me ask the question again. What one specific element of your life would you like to change?

The last question requires us to think about our lives together. What change do you think needs to happen in one element of your communal life—here in this church, in your neighborhood, in Hamden, at work—that you can contribute to with a change in what you say and do, or how you spend your time and resources?

We will go from this service to share a meal and talk about our budget for the coming year, which is actually a discussion about who we are as a congregation and who we think God is calling us to be. Do we have ways in which we need to change our purpose or change our hearts?

The hope that underlies repentance is that when we change ourselves we change the world. May we live boldly into that kind of hope. Amen.

Peace,
Milton

advent journal: preparing

preparing

today has been
a day of preparation

baking cookies for
a coffee house concert
tomorrow night

a breakfast casserole
for the church brunch
after our budget meeting
also tomorrow

a third and fourth
revision of my sermon

and practicing
my new advent carol
as much as my hands
would let me after
all the cooking

not everything was
for other days

I should have said
my first move
was to make
some clam chowder
that simmered through
most of the morning

and after tomorrow
was taken care of

it was ready
to feed us as
we called it a day

Peace,
Milton

advent journal: first friday

first friday

it’s the first Friday
in December
and in our little
snow globe town
which means we light
the evergreen tree
on the Town Green

crowds gather
and the traffic jams
for no other reason
than we have
decided it matters
to all be together
to flip the switch

the evening is
electric because
of what gets
handed down
and all that is
connected to the
lights on the tree

otherwise the
stories would fall
away like most of
the other leaves and
our hearts would
be bare like branches
for the winter

Peace,
Milton

advent journal: light blankets

light blankets

I was the last one
out of the building
tonight after our
service of silence
and singing

the songs were
handed down chants
the silence was marked
by a blanket of candles
on the communion table

I blew them out
turned off the lights
and stepped out
to find the parking lot
basking in moonlight

a celestial blanket
of wonder and warmth
that held me in my tracks
and in my silence
and then it sent me home

Peace,
MIlton

advent journal: road rules

road rules

People owe us what we imagine they will give us. We must forgive them this debt.
— Simone Weil

when the lanes drop
forcing us to merge
a simple errand trip
becomes a standoff
rather than the chance
to accept an invitation
to join the choreography
of cooperation

my stubbornness
will not save any time
nor move the line along
but I will have my place
what a shame
it would have been
to be forced to ride
one car further back

Peace,
Milton

advent journal: eyewitness

advent journal: eyewitness

in my quest to counter
the gathering gloom
as the nights grow longer
and the daylight disappears

I have made a point
of being up everyday
before sunrise to see
the dawn break

right before my eyes
to try and counter the
inevitable arrival of
my autumnal depression

it’s less about daylight and dark
and more about finding
the rhythm of the dance
in my bones my heartbeat

though the dawn doesn’t
need me for the day to begin
I can feel something rise
even break open within me

as I sit and watch the light
sneak the day into being
knowing full well
that it will not last long

nothing is changed by
my attention other than me
I claim no great victory
just the joy of being awake

Peace,
Milton