• grief

    lenten journal: lament

    by  • February 24, 2015 • grief, hope, lenten journal, music • 2 Comments

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    The last two Sundays I have had the privilege of playing music in church with my friend Terry, who is one of the best harmonica players I have ever heard. Soon after we moved to Durham I was asked to sing at the sixtieth birthday party of one of our church members. I sang...

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    lenten journal: why

    by  • February 21, 2015 • grief, hope, lenten journal, love, music • 1 Comment

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    In my days years ago as a hospital chaplain, I spent a lot of time working around the word why. In the context of illness and terminal diagnoses, the word was neither helpful nor hopeful. Why did I get cancer? Why is my father dead? Any answer comes up lacking because it seems to...

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    advent journal: without

    by  • December 17, 2014 • advent journal, friends, grief, love • 3 Comments

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    One of my favorite Pierce Pettis songs begins, “The presence of your absence follows me.” The song has played in the background of my week because tomorrow, December 18, will mark five years since my dear friend David Gentiles died. I could say many things about David, but maybe this will give you an...

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    a marked man

    by  • August 3, 2014 • family, forgiveness, grace, gratitude, grief • 17 Comments

    After my father died last year, Ginger and I were at my mother’s apartment and we saw two or three bags of little white powdered donuts in the pantry. When we asked about them,my mother said, “Every morning we got up and I made a pot of coffee and we had a couple of...

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    summer storm

    by  • July 25, 2014 • depression, grief, poetry • 3 Comments

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    I can see them coming over the tops of the trees the lights at the old ball park the roof tops of the old warehouses the clouds pile up some white as anger behind them a grey wall as deep as darkness here comes the rain again falling on my head like a memory...

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