• of skunks and storms

    by  • May 12, 2009 • Uncategorized • 5 Comments

    It was a dark and stormy afternoon and I was trapped in the Barnes and Noble by a thunderstorm. Ginger was on the other end of the Streets of Southpoint looking for shoes. Since I had the time, I migrated upstairs to the poetry section to see what I could see. There I found a teenage Latina girl who was planted in front of the poetry books and so deeply engrossed in what she was reading that she didn’t even see me when I took my place in front of the bookshelf next to her and opened a book of invitations of my own. Neither of us spoke or acknowledged one another; we simply shared the space the poems made for us there on the second floor.

    We were both deep into our poems when three other girls descended on the young poet like pigeons on breadcrumbs, barraging her with Spanish I didn’t understand. I assumed they had come to tell her it was time to go, or that the rain had stopped. Then one of them asked, “What are you reading?”

    “Poems,” she said. And for the first time she looked at me, perhaps to know someone understood.

    More Spanish, and then the older of the three intruders grabbed the book out of her hand and said, “You don’t need to read poems,” finishing her thought in Spanish.

    The girl grabbed the book back and answered, “Yes, I do. They talk about love and yearning.” The others shrugged her off and turned to walk away. She put the book back on the shelf and began to follow, but not without asking, rhetorically, “What do you want me to do – just get a job and make money everyday?”

    My chance encounter fell in the middle of an eleven-day-thirteen-shift stretch for me at work in a frame of my mind that has me examining what meaning I am making of my life these days. Reading and writing far too easily gives way to prepping and cooking; I spend much more of my life with pots and pans rather than poetry. I love cooking, I like my job, and I would like to spend my time differently, proportionally, than life affords me the opportunity to do in these days.

    The last paragraph has less to do with existential crisis than with the desire, to borrow words from a biblical poet, Paul, to “make the most of the time.” As long as I’m borrowing words, I’ll turn to a poet and recent acquaintance, Justin McRoberts and one of the songs he sang at the Writer’s Conference in Jackson a couple of weeks ago:

    you see the question isn’t are you going to suffer any more
    but what will it have meant when you are through
    the question isn’t are you going to die, you’re going to die
    but will you be done living when you do

    What the poets know is life adds up to more than the sum of the parts. A poet who has befriended me with her words over the years is Naomi Shihab Nye who wrote a poem in response to a student coming up to her at a workshop, handing her a piece of paper with his address on it, and asking her to write a poem and send it to him.

    Valentine for Ernest Mann

    You can’t order a poem like you order a taco.
    Walk up to the counter and say, “I’ll take two”
    and expect it to handed back to you
    on a shiny plate.

    Still, I like you spirit.
    Anyone who says, “Here’s my address,
    write me a poem,” deserves something in reply.
    So I’ll tell a secret instead:
    poems hide. In the bottoms of our shoes,
    they are sleeping. They are the shadows
    drifting across our ceilings the moment
    before we wake up. What we have to do
    is live in a way that lets us find them.

    Once I knew a man who gave his wife
    two skunks for a valentine.
    He couldn’t understand why she was crying.
    “I thought they had such beautiful eyes.”
    And he was serious. He was a serious man
    who lived in a serious way. Nothing was ugly
    just because the world said so. He really
    liked those skunks. So, he re-invented them
    as valentines and they became beautiful.
    At least, to him. And the poems that had been hiding
    in the eyes of skunks for centuries
    crawled out and curled up at his feet.

    Who knows what the days ahead hold for any of us. Here’s what I do know: I want my life to be about poetry more than paychecks. I want to live in the middle of the skunks and the storms and still have the wherewithal to notice who is standing beside me at the next bookshelf, who I come home to, and, whether I spend the rest of my days cooking or writing, do more than get a job and make money, even though I need both.

    Peace,
    Milton

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    5 Responses to of skunks and storms

    1. May 14, 2009 at 7:16 pm

      Maybe it was grace or maybe divine providence or maybe divine intervention???? But hear I was surfing blogs and found this entry and it was the right medicine on the right day.Thanks! And now I am also going to be a Justin McRoberts fan.

    2. Susan
      May 16, 2009 at 4:48 pm

      Wow what a great piece of writing. I am a long time reader and I always look forward to reading what you have to say. You have an amazing way with words. Thank you for sharing your thougts with us.

    3. May 18, 2009 at 1:08 pm

      So much to say in response to this one. Naomi Nye is wonderful (and for me local to San Antonio).

      I agree completely with the desire for proportion in our time. I just wish I knew what that looked like. We seem to have lost our sense of seasons. There is no dead of winter anymore, just more work and more work and more work.

    4. May 18, 2009 at 1:15 pm

      Also, I bet there’s a good deal of poetry in your pots and pans, Milton.

    5. May 18, 2009 at 1:26 pm

      Ahhhhhhh… 🙂

      You’re speaking my language.

      Spent part of my Sabbath yesterday reading Billy Collins to my 9 and 12 year olds, while they sat and doodled, crocheted… sighed, laughed.

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